Filtered to Serenity

Mar 08, 2010 20:51

I'm not so used to playing Father, not really, it's never been an issue so much cos being big brother was all I really needed to be. And it's not as if either me or Joss every had a huge father-figure in our lives anyway, so there wasn't really one to be missed. And Joss's always been a dab hand at taking care of himself, but I had to play father today, or something like it. You come down for breakfast and see your little brother sitting at the table with a cold cup of thick coffee and pushing two aspirins around and around in circles with his finger, and also wearing sunglasses even though it's indoors and morning and winter and pretty dark everywhere, and you sort of have to do something about it, you know?

He was hiding big dark bags under his eyes and rougey cheeks a burlesque dancer'd be envious of, and he swore he wasn't hungover so I believed him, but his temperature was up a bit and I actually had to forbid him from going to school. Even without the temperature, I probably would've done that. I think he'd been staring at the aspirin for a long time. Pushing them round in wee circles. I'm a worried Leon.

Tried to have a talk with him about what's bothering him but he wasn't having any of it. There was obscene muttering and door slamming. Then ten minutes ago I had to drag him back to bed again because he was out by the gargoyles shivering too much to even light a cigarette. So I called the cafe and said I wasn't coming in today either, because if I do leave I think he will sneak out and go to school. He's not like other kids.

But I'm a worried Leon.
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