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i haven't felt this alone in a long time.
and the weird thing is... i shouldn't be feeling alone because I just had a huge discussion with my friends about drama and stuff... and got it solved i suppose.
it is just that i still feel like shit
i can't concentrate on my schoolwork and i really need to.
i just need someone to talk to, or to be held
but i have a paper to write and my bf is sick and tired so i have to let him sleep.
right now i am so desperate for someone to talk to that i want to call you know who... but that would be inappropriate.
i can't stand the fact at how alone i feel here. maybe it is just stress from school and drama getting to me, and my depressive self is coming back.
but i just don't know. i do not want to be here.
i just want to go somewhere to escape. and not the type of escape i thought this was gonna be... like really away from people.
because honestly no matter where you go there is gonna be the same situations.
what had always happened to me in hs is happeneing now. with friends and stuff
and in all honesty. i do no deserve an ounce of it.
i try to be such a good person and do not INTENTIONALLY hurt anyone. yet i am the one who get picked on and bitched at.
basically i am just ranting to rant. i know i have like maybe a few skimmers. but it just helps to get it out, and i am faster at typing than writing and i guess it is better when someone at least SEES it, to make me feel like i have someone to rant to.
meh. roomate situations suck. i am never living in a dorm again.
i should go write my essay...
and the weird thing is... i shouldn't be feeling alone because I just had a huge discussion with my friends about drama and stuff... and got it solved i suppose.
it is just that i still feel like shit
i can't concentrate on my schoolwork and i really need to.
i just need someone to talk to, or to be held
but i have a paper to write and my bf is sick and tired so i have to let him sleep.
right now i am so desperate for someone to talk to that i want to call you know who... but that would be inappropriate.
i can't stand the fact at how alone i feel here. maybe it is just stress from school and drama getting to me, and my depressive self is coming back.
but i just don't know. i do not want to be here.
i just want to go somewhere to escape. and not the type of escape i thought this was gonna be... like really away from people.
because honestly no matter where you go there is gonna be the same situations.
what had always happened to me in hs is happeneing now. with friends and stuff
and in all honesty. i do no deserve an ounce of it.
i try to be such a good person and do not INTENTIONALLY hurt anyone. yet i am the one who get picked on and bitched at.
basically i am just ranting to rant. i know i have like maybe a few skimmers. but it just helps to get it out, and i am faster at typing than writing and i guess it is better when someone at least SEES it, to make me feel like i have someone to rant to.
meh. roomate situations suck. i am never living in a dorm again.
i should go write my essay...