Sorry I've been neglectful lately...
Jozef and I spent a lovely two days together hibernating in my apartment. I am currently broke beyond belief, but that hasn't been bothering me the past couple days that Jozef has been here. He left this morning, but I'm still high off of having him here. The retail store I work at hasn't scheduled me before I leave for Mexico, I guess because it has been so slow. I've been trying to promote my jewelry, taking surveys online for meager money, and the professor I work for gave me a few projects to do. I think I may survive. I keep trying to ward off bad thoughts like if I were more talented I could support myself better from my Etsy shop.
My parents are giving me spending money for Mexico because I never shop/ask for anything. Then when I get back I'll try applying to jobs again and order books to start studying for the dreaded GRE. PhD programs in Clinical Psychology are so intimidating... I can't even begin to describe it.
I should have started working out for Mexico. I haven't tried on a swim suit... I'm afraid to. Oh well... maybe I'll like my body for the tentative Cook Islands trip.
Jozef and I watched a lot of tv and just cuddled. Which I loved. We watched The Excorcism of Emily Rose, a lot of Family Guy, Bob's Burgers, Futurama, and a weird movie called Black Sheep (not the Chris Farley one, a "horror" one that makes fun of horror movies... hilarious).
I shouldn't place so much emphasis on how I look. Jozef tells me I'm beautiful, but I often feel fat. If I'm brave enough perhaps I'll post pictures of me in my swim suit. Perhaps. No promises. People shouldn't be ashamed of their bodies.
In other news, I am no longer on Effexor! That stupid drug is out of my life forever and I am no longer a zombie. I'm on Zoloft (so I wouldn't feel the withdrawal from Effexor)-- but hopefully I'll be off of that soon too.