why do they have to be so mean?
:( I just don't understand this, how can one person make me feel so happy most of the time but also at times just make me feel like nothing... :( I really need to stop being like this, maybe I just care for people to much, agh she dosn't care, just another smuck (smuck = word of the week, I been saying it to much) if only it all could have been different, if only there werent so many problems in the first place and I thought about it way to long, agh its to late now... Anyways rest of life, I started talking to anna (again) I wounder how long we shall be able to talk together this time, I have beats on less than a months, just like the last time... :( ooowwww I made her a mini disk, she seems really pleased with it and reminded her of when we were like the best of friends, mmm a nice thought. mmm "I got to get you into my life... I got to get you into my life" - mmm a classic of our times, mmm I got a top thinking this way... agh just pisses me off. Me ma desided to have another rant at me just informing me again that I'm a lazy good for nothing, and a complate waister, a waist of space. Oh and shes told me I can move out at anytime, thats nice and reasuring. nice to know your wanted atleast somewhere, oh I forget though I amnt wanted anywhere or by anyone... hhhmmm I still really down, not about what me ma said cause I'm always down about that. I just feel really down about talking to rowan on msn earlyer, smuck I beleive the work is... way...