Leaving

[thetasteofink22]

i leave friday, maybe thursday after school. i have to go help clean up my home. its sad but my family is ok. i had planned to go visit my cousins' graves for the first time since my cousin ryan died but now i can't; the graveyard was flooded. i'm hoping that maybe the water will go down by the time i get there so that i can at least help wash off the marble and concrete around their graves. since all of this stuff started (the storm) i've wanted to go back home to stay more than ever. i don't know if i could stand to be here if another family member dies. all of this has kept me down lately. i need to see my family to make sure they're really ok. god i miss living there and i wish that i could leave friday and not come back. this place just brings me down. i'm so happy when i'm at home in louisiana; i just want to start over again. i know i can't get all of this lost time back. i can't start high school over; i can't start life over. all i can do is change my surroundings. don't get me wrong i love you guys but i feel things just have to change.
its times like these that i want to cut my hair, lol, but so many people would be upset with me if i did so i probably won't. probably, lol.
luv,
aimee