My (*gay) Mormon Ex Bf
I'm not sure why this is the thing that I want to write about now. I've not been writing for work for about a month and I decided that I needed to do something like this because well I'm feeling rusty. Now The first thing I have to say is that I'm not really rusty I'm actually writing but just not something of thought. Not that this is the forum that I have said to with most thought for me. This is usually put up my tortured existentialist nightmares that no one will read or want to read. This is 600 rambling mostly nonsensical posts that were made mainly for me and not for other people to read. In fact you could say that this media is the best place to post my insanity. But for whatever reason I watched house MD and the cop on there reminded me of my ex we'll call peter the (*gay) Mormon.
First off we have to get things straight and by straight I mean sexuality. The reason that I wrote (*gay) Mormon is explained to the very fact of the faith that concedes or refuses to concede that there is are in fact gay Mormons. The fact that there are (*gay) make it officially as if they are not complete members of the faith. One of my ex (*gay) Mormon friends said it this way there are so many of them out there that they can't come out because they will lose family home and they have been brainwashed to thing that there is no such thing as a (*gay) Mormon.
Second to complicate things further Peter was a (*gay) Mormon missionary that was stationed in my neighborhood in northeast Los Angeles City. You and I have all seen them nice looking well adjusted looking boys in a white shirt and tie. With a name badge saying Peter LDS Elder. I'm not sure what an Elder is but to explain what little bit I know. An Elder is just a leader who helps out the church. The Priest is not a priest just a pastor and the leader of each individual church is a bishop. This really messes with my Catholic and Jewish sensibilities of hierarchy but that's neither here nor there. They for whatever reason climbed my impossibly high steep hill to talk to my land lady who gave them tomatoes from the garden and accepted their leaflets through the spiked fenced yard. There was a number on there and just for kicks(and a possible article) I called the number and spoke with Peter.
I offered to pick him up but instead he agreed to meet me at the local Starbucks that I tried to avoid. We talked long and hard about religion and how my secular humanist views were wrong so were views about Judaism and Catholicism and Christianity was wrong too. I mentioned that I was gay but he said that his church had "healed" him of being a (*gay) Mormon. I am always skeptical about those kind of groups who think that electric shock and ghost stories for you soul with sleep deprivation will change your sexuality. So I challenged him again and got him to go STD testing with me with my former work.
He was a bit shocked and said that if anyone saw him there he would be banned etc etc. Very scared that someone would find out. Well I found out that he liked my personality and about 2 months into the "friendship" after weird dates and me going to church he proclaimed that he was a (*gay) Mormon or LDS person. We found a group of people who were either still LDS or left the church in Atwater Village to deal with our issues. By then his missionary trip was over and he had become a PA for a production company in Hollywood so I had full access to him.
Things were spiffying until he said that he would like a full relationship with me which at that point I thought we were just friends and not going that direction. I stated that I was a horrible person and he said that he didn't care that I could change because he had changed. Well he had changed LA had made him a more ruthless person. His attitude towards me was more of master to slave then anything else. I like that sometimes but those who know me know I have a pretty dominant personality and for someone to treat me like that without respect is well, impossible. We did try a relationship and it didn't work and he cried at the end and blamed me without fault. I'm not going to say that it wasn't a tad my fault, however it wasn't all my fault. Last I heard he was still in LA still a PA and almost come out to his family which if I'm being serious probably knew he was gay from the beginning. He was that obvious.
There is no moral to the story it just reminded me of my TV show.
First off we have to get things straight and by straight I mean sexuality. The reason that I wrote (*gay) Mormon is explained to the very fact of the faith that concedes or refuses to concede that there is are in fact gay Mormons. The fact that there are (*gay) make it officially as if they are not complete members of the faith. One of my ex (*gay) Mormon friends said it this way there are so many of them out there that they can't come out because they will lose family home and they have been brainwashed to thing that there is no such thing as a (*gay) Mormon.
Second to complicate things further Peter was a (*gay) Mormon missionary that was stationed in my neighborhood in northeast Los Angeles City. You and I have all seen them nice looking well adjusted looking boys in a white shirt and tie. With a name badge saying Peter LDS Elder. I'm not sure what an Elder is but to explain what little bit I know. An Elder is just a leader who helps out the church. The Priest is not a priest just a pastor and the leader of each individual church is a bishop. This really messes with my Catholic and Jewish sensibilities of hierarchy but that's neither here nor there. They for whatever reason climbed my impossibly high steep hill to talk to my land lady who gave them tomatoes from the garden and accepted their leaflets through the spiked fenced yard. There was a number on there and just for kicks(and a possible article) I called the number and spoke with Peter.
I offered to pick him up but instead he agreed to meet me at the local Starbucks that I tried to avoid. We talked long and hard about religion and how my secular humanist views were wrong so were views about Judaism and Catholicism and Christianity was wrong too. I mentioned that I was gay but he said that his church had "healed" him of being a (*gay) Mormon. I am always skeptical about those kind of groups who think that electric shock and ghost stories for you soul with sleep deprivation will change your sexuality. So I challenged him again and got him to go STD testing with me with my former work.
He was a bit shocked and said that if anyone saw him there he would be banned etc etc. Very scared that someone would find out. Well I found out that he liked my personality and about 2 months into the "friendship" after weird dates and me going to church he proclaimed that he was a (*gay) Mormon or LDS person. We found a group of people who were either still LDS or left the church in Atwater Village to deal with our issues. By then his missionary trip was over and he had become a PA for a production company in Hollywood so I had full access to him.
Things were spiffying until he said that he would like a full relationship with me which at that point I thought we were just friends and not going that direction. I stated that I was a horrible person and he said that he didn't care that I could change because he had changed. Well he had changed LA had made him a more ruthless person. His attitude towards me was more of master to slave then anything else. I like that sometimes but those who know me know I have a pretty dominant personality and for someone to treat me like that without respect is well, impossible. We did try a relationship and it didn't work and he cried at the end and blamed me without fault. I'm not going to say that it wasn't a tad my fault, however it wasn't all my fault. Last I heard he was still in LA still a PA and almost come out to his family which if I'm being serious probably knew he was gay from the beginning. He was that obvious.
There is no moral to the story it just reminded me of my TV show.