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you want to know something..i hate it!!! i just..realy hate the way he makes me feel!!!i was so angry with him today..(dont get me wrong i still am) and yet i love him..hes my best friend..i hate it.. i can be so mad at him, and yet still send him texts when were sitting right next to eachother..he can make deerburger helper and make me laugh.. *now that takes skill* and yet...i have to be angry with him
and im pretty sure it bugs him..but it bugs me..
i mean...he doesnt mean to but everytime im around him he gets my self esteem soooo damn low its not even funny..then he brings it back up, then shoots it back down.....as much as i like roller-coasters, this one isnt for me..
today i called andy ward again..it was interesting..i asked if he wanted to hang out and he told me he didnt want a relationship..i told him i wasnt looking for one...there was a long pause...then he said he was too busy...i should have asked if it was bc i was gothic.....but..i didnt...i dont want him actually thinking that..i mean..he SOOO would ..but i still find it amusing....
today work was fun...well..it wasnt fun...that was a huge lie...they put me in back-booth..again..which pissed me off..again...i swear...why dont they just learn not to put me there???!?!?!?! well i guess noone ever learns..
last night i talked to mikey walton..he seems like a pretty cool guy...i mean..after all..hes mikey..haha
other than that..shane wants to hang out next weekend..and it might very well happen...bc im also staying at johns house with karli..lol...
anyways,
im off to bed...b4 i pass out..bye bye for now..
♥♥kiss my ass♥♥ *everything looks nice with hearts around it*
-kelsie