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well i havent written a good journal in like..forever..soo..here goes positively nothing!!!
okay well lets start with chrissy..my future husband...
idk what to think about him..hes so sweet and kind...and then again he doesnt seem interested... yet he does..i mean...idk..he says he likes talking to me so i guess that wahtever happens happens between us bc... well i guess its hard bc he goes to college up in grand rapids which is a few (or more) hours away from me...but i mean..id still see him on breaks..and hell be here all summer next summer!! which is good right? i just dont know if hes really interested or if im just another girl..its scary..i hate feeling like this!!! i really do!!!!!!!!!!!
other than that...member michael browning? well i totally bitched him out today..and it felt really good..i mean REALLY..
but his little brother marc...he likes me..im trying to figure out why..actually im trying to figure how a bunch of guys like me..i think its all just gay....but...of course i might just be wrong..i mean yea im pretty...but nothing changes me from any other girl...nothing makes me stand out...so i really dont get it!
okay..now....for shane....oh here goes nothing
i really dont know what to say about that kid....hes so corky/dorky/cute/funny/adorable....everything i need..and yet..i just cant make a decision to be with him or not..i mean i want to be..but then again i dont want to hurt him..which i always do...and im horrible for it..really i am..but i think it would be alot better for me if i just stopped thinking about guys..i mean...i dont have to..but i really think that i should stop worrying about what they think..then again...i really like shane like..alot..idk why..but i do...then again...im afraid to hurt him....did i say that i kissed him the other day? i actually had the balls to do that..which was odd...bc..well..its me! i am beginning to wonder what aj thinks about it..i mean....idk...after all i was with stephen....and he knows how i am..but im not gonna be like the was i was with stephen bc ive changed alot since then...i have a more level head on my shoulders...lol but then again..i kinda want him to approve of me...then again..aj has a lot going on right now and its kinda bothering me..bc i really wish he was better...
okay...so ...now...
tomorro (or today) i have work...then i get to come home...(yay) lol..which ill hang out with shane untill about 9.......which works for me...6 whole hours!!!! yay..but he gets to see me in my work uniform....*not yay* lol..well im off here for now..sorry for being boring!!
-love always (you know who you are)-
kelsie
okay well lets start with chrissy..my future husband...
idk what to think about him..hes so sweet and kind...and then again he doesnt seem interested... yet he does..i mean...idk..he says he likes talking to me so i guess that wahtever happens happens between us bc... well i guess its hard bc he goes to college up in grand rapids which is a few (or more) hours away from me...but i mean..id still see him on breaks..and hell be here all summer next summer!! which is good right? i just dont know if hes really interested or if im just another girl..its scary..i hate feeling like this!!! i really do!!!!!!!!!!!
other than that...member michael browning? well i totally bitched him out today..and it felt really good..i mean REALLY..
but his little brother marc...he likes me..im trying to figure out why..actually im trying to figure how a bunch of guys like me..i think its all just gay....but...of course i might just be wrong..i mean yea im pretty...but nothing changes me from any other girl...nothing makes me stand out...so i really dont get it!
okay..now....for shane....oh here goes nothing
i really dont know what to say about that kid....hes so corky/dorky/cute/funny/adorable....everything i need..and yet..i just cant make a decision to be with him or not..i mean i want to be..but then again i dont want to hurt him..which i always do...and im horrible for it..really i am..but i think it would be alot better for me if i just stopped thinking about guys..i mean...i dont have to..but i really think that i should stop worrying about what they think..then again...i really like shane like..alot..idk why..but i do...then again...im afraid to hurt him....did i say that i kissed him the other day? i actually had the balls to do that..which was odd...bc..well..its me! i am beginning to wonder what aj thinks about it..i mean....idk...after all i was with stephen....and he knows how i am..but im not gonna be like the was i was with stephen bc ive changed alot since then...i have a more level head on my shoulders...lol but then again..i kinda want him to approve of me...then again..aj has a lot going on right now and its kinda bothering me..bc i really wish he was better...
okay...so ...now...
tomorro (or today) i have work...then i get to come home...(yay) lol..which ill hang out with shane untill about 9.......which works for me...6 whole hours!!!! yay..but he gets to see me in my work uniform....*not yay* lol..well im off here for now..sorry for being boring!!
-love always (you know who you are)-
kelsie