Complexity In Simplicity.
Independence. What is it? I thought I knew. But I am really starting to believe that don't have the tiniest inkling of the concept. I have known for years that I am co-dependent. I feel by nature that I am. I see very independent people everyday and I envy them. Why can't I get it? Why can't I be independent? I too want to stand on my own. And when I do show independence it's due to a blow up with my parents. Where I leave with the "I'll show them" attitude. But I do it out of spite. Then I am back to co-dependent behavior. Am I a lost cause? Should I just invest in some rope or poison? I feel I have other traits though that make me a worth while person while I am on this earth. For some reason I have talent within my creativity. I can write really good music. I can draw what I envision in my mind. I can write lyrics/poems. But none of that pays bills or shows I am a decent human being worthy being treated like one.
I dunno. Then there's that whole responsibility thing. I try. I really do try. I need a therapist or psychologist it feels like. But I cannot afford it. Oh well. Gonna go write a song about it. As music it seems keeps me from grabbing for that rope.
I dunno. Then there's that whole responsibility thing. I try. I really do try. I need a therapist or psychologist it feels like. But I cannot afford it. Oh well. Gonna go write a song about it. As music it seems keeps me from grabbing for that rope.