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Motivation is at a huge low right now. School is really overwhelming but it's only because I'm letting it get to me. I procrastinate endlessly and then have to work extra hard to get shit done on time. Then again, working like that really triggers me to do my best so it's not all negative.
However, yesterday, I just had a little mental breakdown. I stressed myself out to the point of an intense migraine. My work received a big 'fuck you' and I just passed out before midnight.
So, I'm pushing myself back onto the right track. Along with that, I've given up idealism. I won't get into Hopkins or anywhere like that. I'll definitely try my best and apply but let's face it--I'll be happy just getting into med school. I'm also exploring my other options, in case it falls through. I don't need this to be another Georgetown situation.
I just really, really don't want to do anything constructive right now. Thank god work is over. I just push through the weeks and breathe again on the weekends.
Speaking of that, my weekends have been great. My life is going really well in every respect other than school. If I bring that back up to my standards, I'll be golden.
However, yesterday, I just had a little mental breakdown. I stressed myself out to the point of an intense migraine. My work received a big 'fuck you' and I just passed out before midnight.
So, I'm pushing myself back onto the right track. Along with that, I've given up idealism. I won't get into Hopkins or anywhere like that. I'll definitely try my best and apply but let's face it--I'll be happy just getting into med school. I'm also exploring my other options, in case it falls through. I don't need this to be another Georgetown situation.
I just really, really don't want to do anything constructive right now. Thank god work is over. I just push through the weeks and breathe again on the weekends.
Speaking of that, my weekends have been great. My life is going really well in every respect other than school. If I bring that back up to my standards, I'll be golden.