Here We Go Again
i want to be
the air on your leaves
always touching you
making you move
i want to be
that one memory
you always recall
to carry you home
i want to be
the dam breaking free
forceful and great
the water, it runs
i'm going to be
your closest friend
the best damn thing
is what i want to be
.........................................................................
Pat. How can I tell this to you? You are so special. I feel like we've already shared some memories... we've already become so close.
What are we? We have an "official" title now, whatever power a title holds. I am scared. I am scared because I know how close to you I could become. I'm going to let it go now. I'm going to really let it all come out and I'm going to give it to you. I hope it all goes over well.
I mean I'm letting go. I'm doing my best to be my best, continuing my path of happiness and self-reliance. Continuing to be myself. I told myself that I would be me and not rely on anyone for awhile... this is so soon for me. It seems so easy for you let yourself need me... after so long. What do I admire about you? I admire that you're such a hard worker. You're truthful and you like to have fun. You're a good person, you have your faults, as we all do, but you are moral and also fun. That's hard to do! Haha, I'm going to keep you in check, you know. I hope you do the same for me, with just as much laughter.
I hope we can be everything I want and everything you want. This is new. This is not solid. How is it you're my closest friend so soon? How is it you understand me?
I am so scared, and somehow I feel unfulfilled. I know I need to let this sink in.
I am going to trust in God, and myself, and every whim and will of the universe that this is what I want. I mean I'm happy. I've been happy, why shouldn't I be?
So if I'm happy I shouldn't fight it. I should just go with it. That's why I'm going to cooperate with myself and just let it happen. I need to take a leap of faith and just give in to what I want.
I ask myself again... am I ready for this?
I know why it scares me. I feel like if I ever did anything to let you down... to hurt you or make you feel less. ESPECIALLY if it was because of me or about me, I would feel horrible. I never want to be angry at you, or you to be angry at me. Gah it hurts just imagining it. And that's the not-so-glamorous part of relationships. We were friends before, so it was different, right? Like, friends can't get in serious fights that really hurt. I mean... not my friends. We're going to mess up eventually, I guess I'm going to have to accept that, although I'm not expecting it.
Maybe I'm scared because we're so perfect. Haha.
Ahh I love you.
-Cece
the air on your leaves
always touching you
making you move
i want to be
that one memory
you always recall
to carry you home
i want to be
the dam breaking free
forceful and great
the water, it runs
i'm going to be
your closest friend
the best damn thing
is what i want to be
.........................................................................
Pat. How can I tell this to you? You are so special. I feel like we've already shared some memories... we've already become so close.
What are we? We have an "official" title now, whatever power a title holds. I am scared. I am scared because I know how close to you I could become. I'm going to let it go now. I'm going to really let it all come out and I'm going to give it to you. I hope it all goes over well.
I mean I'm letting go. I'm doing my best to be my best, continuing my path of happiness and self-reliance. Continuing to be myself. I told myself that I would be me and not rely on anyone for awhile... this is so soon for me. It seems so easy for you let yourself need me... after so long. What do I admire about you? I admire that you're such a hard worker. You're truthful and you like to have fun. You're a good person, you have your faults, as we all do, but you are moral and also fun. That's hard to do! Haha, I'm going to keep you in check, you know. I hope you do the same for me, with just as much laughter.
I hope we can be everything I want and everything you want. This is new. This is not solid. How is it you're my closest friend so soon? How is it you understand me?
I am so scared, and somehow I feel unfulfilled. I know I need to let this sink in.
I am going to trust in God, and myself, and every whim and will of the universe that this is what I want. I mean I'm happy. I've been happy, why shouldn't I be?
So if I'm happy I shouldn't fight it. I should just go with it. That's why I'm going to cooperate with myself and just let it happen. I need to take a leap of faith and just give in to what I want.
I ask myself again... am I ready for this?
I know why it scares me. I feel like if I ever did anything to let you down... to hurt you or make you feel less. ESPECIALLY if it was because of me or about me, I would feel horrible. I never want to be angry at you, or you to be angry at me. Gah it hurts just imagining it. And that's the not-so-glamorous part of relationships. We were friends before, so it was different, right? Like, friends can't get in serious fights that really hurt. I mean... not my friends. We're going to mess up eventually, I guess I'm going to have to accept that, although I'm not expecting it.
Maybe I'm scared because we're so perfect. Haha.
Ahh I love you.
-Cece