Oh no, not again.
So I'm not very excited right now. I just thought I would get that out there. I'm not all sweaty-palmed and crazy to get my thoughts down, like some giddy school girl.
I think I'm falling for someone? But at the same time I think that I could just be feeling really appreciative of having a new friend... who just happens to be a guy, which is really what I need right now. And how I usually deal with guys is by, well, dating them... I'm actually meeting (Kyle) for coffee on Saturday. I should be full of butterflies, just at the excitement of meeting someone I've already talked to and became friends with.
I have no idea. We have been talking a bunch the past couple of days. And I really do like him as a person, but I am so turned off by the idea that he just got out of a four-year relationship. I don't think I would be able to be with someone without feeling insecure about how that might've affected them... and only after about 2 months. I mean, I only dated Chris for about a year and now, 2-3 months later I'm still just now making peace with it.
I mean I would feel like he would expect me to pick up the pieces of thier broken relationship of where they last left off? I really don't have any insight into thier relationship, but, it had to have been complicated, and I don't feel like dealing with that.
Anyway... I'm tired of trying to manipulate my future, especially in dealings of the heart. Which is a whole different topic entirely, but, it does mean that I am working towards accepting what life brings me, whether I want it or not.
We will see what happens come Saturday.
I think I'm falling for someone? But at the same time I think that I could just be feeling really appreciative of having a new friend... who just happens to be a guy, which is really what I need right now. And how I usually deal with guys is by, well, dating them... I'm actually meeting (Kyle) for coffee on Saturday. I should be full of butterflies, just at the excitement of meeting someone I've already talked to and became friends with.
I have no idea. We have been talking a bunch the past couple of days. And I really do like him as a person, but I am so turned off by the idea that he just got out of a four-year relationship. I don't think I would be able to be with someone without feeling insecure about how that might've affected them... and only after about 2 months. I mean, I only dated Chris for about a year and now, 2-3 months later I'm still just now making peace with it.
I mean I would feel like he would expect me to pick up the pieces of thier broken relationship of where they last left off? I really don't have any insight into thier relationship, but, it had to have been complicated, and I don't feel like dealing with that.
Anyway... I'm tired of trying to manipulate my future, especially in dealings of the heart. Which is a whole different topic entirely, but, it does mean that I am working towards accepting what life brings me, whether I want it or not.
We will see what happens come Saturday.