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omg i am so scared its thundering and lightening outside and i hate storms.. to bad my boy toy aint here to help me out.. he always like makes me not think about the damn storms.. ahhh to bad hes out on a fire .. then hes goin home cry.... lol we arent dating hes just a good friend that makes me really happy.. i met him in the store i started giving him a hard time saying that he was there more than i was.. and we hit it off.. one night after one of the lil fires he had i was walking back from joys house (i have to walk by the firestation to get from joys to my house) and he ws driving away from the fire house.. he said i looked cold and that hed drive well i told and insisted that i didnt live far (seriously like 2 or 3 blocks and i was already half way there) so i let him.. he drove and when i told him to stop at my apartment he asked if i needed to pick something up and that he wasnt a soofer(sp?) i laughed and said yeah this is the place.. hes like i gotta see this.. so i took him up to my apartment(thank god it was clean) and he stayed here all night.. and we talked watch rosanne and i showed him CoH and said once i get my computer built hes goin have to buy it and play with me.. he said it looked childish (WAH) lol but we got along great and then we asked about the unmentionable ex husband.. i told him that he divorced me because i was mean(he laughed and said what girl isnt mean its there nature.. no girl is ever not mean.. and if someone says they are they truely have blinders on..anways then i went on and told him more about the whole situation.. he asked questiong and i answered to the best of my abilty.. then we went on more important things.. i talked to him more in that one night about more serious stuff than i have ever talked to to anyone.. even my aunt carol(and umm we have had very deep conversations lately) well and before we knew it the sun had come up and both of us werent tired so he took me to worthington(which is 30 min away to the west) to his favorite restuarant it was so yummy.. then we went to a mall in fairmont(which was about a 45 min drive).. while we were there i said that i was sooo craving taco bell... i hadnt had it in sooo long.. so he tooke me to he closest one from jackson and that was in "kato" which is about a hour and a hlf drive when we got there they were closed for reconstruction or something.. so we went to a caseys and we got free pizza cause (they liked us) we told them that we just got ingaged and they believed us and said they make one large for us.. it was kinda funny.. and by the time we got back to town it was dark.. and then we were both tired. we were together for almost 24 hours and the whole time we talk and laughed there was no dead silence ever well except when we were chewing.. it was the best day ever... when he left he walked me to my door and said he didnt wanna leave and i said that he had to cause we both needed sleep.. he never tried anything the whole time.. and that night he said i know without you teling me that you still love chris you never said one bad thing about him when i treid to pry it out of you.. i know that you do need time cause being married is a big deal and no one could just shift relationshops like that.. so i am not goin try and kiss you.. he then took is hand and brushed the hair out of my eys and took my hand and kissed it and said hes call me tmorrow nad get this he did.. everything he says hes goin do he does.. everything he promises me he does (with he exception of if there is a fire cal and he is on that at the time he says hell be over or hell call..)but as soon as he has the chance he calls and apologizes.. hes reallysweet.. best guy out there a really good friend