Long Time, No Update
A lot has been happening, school wise, life wise. No hope of catching up.
So, my immediate drama. Nabil and I broke up. We had to, because we were starting to get serious, and really care about each other, and we can't do that. Because he's moving soon, because I'm not Shia, etc etc etc. Anyway, was sad, but felt like the smart thing. We're good.
Turns out not so much. I have a huge exam on Monday in my worst subject and I can't focus. I study best when he's there (or when I know he's coming later and will ask me how much I did) I haven't eaten or slept at all. I didn't think I'd be this upset, but here we are. Also, I didn't realize how dependent I had become on him. I know that's just another good reason to break up, but it makes things harder now. Not just for things like driving and what to do saturday night, I have tons of friends and I can get myself around, but I didn't realize how much he kept my spirits up, when I was homesick or feeling inadequate with school. I don't know how to handle this place without him. I've been here for 15 weeks and we've been together for 13. I honestly don't know how to handle this without him.
So, my immediate drama. Nabil and I broke up. We had to, because we were starting to get serious, and really care about each other, and we can't do that. Because he's moving soon, because I'm not Shia, etc etc etc. Anyway, was sad, but felt like the smart thing. We're good.
Turns out not so much. I have a huge exam on Monday in my worst subject and I can't focus. I study best when he's there (or when I know he's coming later and will ask me how much I did) I haven't eaten or slept at all. I didn't think I'd be this upset, but here we are. Also, I didn't realize how dependent I had become on him. I know that's just another good reason to break up, but it makes things harder now. Not just for things like driving and what to do saturday night, I have tons of friends and I can get myself around, but I didn't realize how much he kept my spirits up, when I was homesick or feeling inadequate with school. I don't know how to handle this place without him. I've been here for 15 weeks and we've been together for 13. I honestly don't know how to handle this without him.