yea yea yea i must suck.
i hate feeling right about something that i dont want to end up right..
but it usually turns out that way.
i usually answer my own questionable conversations..and i was right
all along..
i hate having crushes. because i dont have crushes.
like..i dont ever get crushes and i have one.
but its going down the drain.
i hate feeling like ive always only been wanted by one person..
not that its bad but i want to try something new with someone
that i actually am attracted to...but that never seems to work for me..
i like someone because i think that theyre beautiful and amazing..and i
want to know more about them and i want him to want to know more about
me but i doubt it would happen because hed probably go ADD on me..
but i seem to know that they couldnt feel more opposite about me
and i kinda want to scream and i want to tell him how i feel about the
situation but i hate handing things out..and i will not call him so hes
gonna have to do it - if it even happens..and then ill probably get
aggrivated and frustrated because guys usually act like they have no idea
that somethings wrong.. or if they ask because they seem to know they just
realize that you arent talking as much as you usually do and what not.
and i hate being mean..because i am a really big hearted and caring individual
but when something bothers me this much - which isnt often..i want to talk
about it..so i guess thats why im venting to fucking live journal. wtf?
AHHHHH. i hate feeling like im not good enough for someone.. im trying to
figure out if its karma but how could it be when its never gone the right
way for me to begin with..? i hate feeling like i could be something special
for someone but they wont give me a chance.. now i know how eugene feels and
damnit im sorry but im just too stupid to give you a chance. but this isnt
even about eugene. its about someone else who zones off when i wish he wouldnt.
*sigh* this sucks even though its my fault for getting too deep to myself.
he doesnt even know.. he has a clue but i doubt hed hold on to it long enough
to realize how i feel..
but it usually turns out that way.
i usually answer my own questionable conversations..and i was right
all along..
i hate having crushes. because i dont have crushes.
like..i dont ever get crushes and i have one.
but its going down the drain.
i hate feeling like ive always only been wanted by one person..
not that its bad but i want to try something new with someone
that i actually am attracted to...but that never seems to work for me..
i like someone because i think that theyre beautiful and amazing..and i
want to know more about them and i want him to want to know more about
me but i doubt it would happen because hed probably go ADD on me..
but i seem to know that they couldnt feel more opposite about me
and i kinda want to scream and i want to tell him how i feel about the
situation but i hate handing things out..and i will not call him so hes
gonna have to do it - if it even happens..and then ill probably get
aggrivated and frustrated because guys usually act like they have no idea
that somethings wrong.. or if they ask because they seem to know they just
realize that you arent talking as much as you usually do and what not.
and i hate being mean..because i am a really big hearted and caring individual
but when something bothers me this much - which isnt often..i want to talk
about it..so i guess thats why im venting to fucking live journal. wtf?
AHHHHH. i hate feeling like im not good enough for someone.. im trying to
figure out if its karma but how could it be when its never gone the right
way for me to begin with..? i hate feeling like i could be something special
for someone but they wont give me a chance.. now i know how eugene feels and
damnit im sorry but im just too stupid to give you a chance. but this isnt
even about eugene. its about someone else who zones off when i wish he wouldnt.
*sigh* this sucks even though its my fault for getting too deep to myself.
he doesnt even know.. he has a clue but i doubt hed hold on to it long enough
to realize how i feel..