at the lake..
so on friday i went to the movies with him...and he said what i wanted him to say..its wierd how happy and excited i get around him even though something always happens for the worst. (sooner or later) things were going swell until we got to my house to say goodnight..i didnt really know what to say..so then he left and said hed call tomorrow right? (just like always)so my mom wouldnt answer the phone and i was locked out! i was roaming around in the freezing cold for like literally 30 minutes trying to get inside my own frickin house. i kept calling my mom and i could hear the phone(s) ringing ouside they were so loud!! i was like wtf is going on. so i finally find some spare keys and get inside and shes like dead asleep on the couch! and like 3 phones were laying like in the same room as she was..it was crazy. idk.
so im thinking about how ready i am to get out of effin high school b/c i dont really seem to fit in anywhere..(the outskirts of college await past the lame gates of high school hell)
hopefully something good will come of that..right? i tried calling rroo yesterday to tell her what happened but she didnt answer so i left it alone.
so he grabs my hand and hes like parrish i know i havent impressed you but i want us to start talking again..i looked at him and i said the last time u wanted to start talking i got screwed over..and he was like well if you want to wait this time and see how serious im being then i dont mind and i said that was what i wanted to do last time and then when i thought things were cool i got blown off..so when he said hed call me tomorrow (meaning last night) i kinda doubted it..why get your hopes up for nothing right? im over that. he was like and parrish..ive been thinking so much about somethings and i love you...i laughed to myself and told him thanx..and said when that starts to mean something to me ill let you know. and he was like thats cool..but i do..and i was like ok well it makes me happy anyways..and its wierd. blah.
we went to steak and shake too! muahaha. i love their fries..so mike called..like always. lol but i didnt answer..so he sent me a text massage like 4 times..i was like wtf. and dani called me and started crying and then she hung up on me because i guess i wasnt helping..idk..but then i fell asleep..so this morning there was no missed call from him..and dani left me a voicemail and mike left me all those wierd i love you text messages..wow..but he claims that he did call and myabe he did because my voicemail was full but w/e. im at the lake awaiting a superbowl party with the family..nice right? but i have an Amer. government test tomorrow!! ahhhhhhh i hate that class. ghey. me and peter had fun at our community service thing this weekend though. it was pretty nifty. i think were going to do it a few more times. :o)
well im out. i miss rroo a little bit for some reason. tehe. tonight is going to be a seriously late evening.
so im thinking about how ready i am to get out of effin high school b/c i dont really seem to fit in anywhere..(the outskirts of college await past the lame gates of high school hell)
hopefully something good will come of that..right? i tried calling rroo yesterday to tell her what happened but she didnt answer so i left it alone.
so he grabs my hand and hes like parrish i know i havent impressed you but i want us to start talking again..i looked at him and i said the last time u wanted to start talking i got screwed over..and he was like well if you want to wait this time and see how serious im being then i dont mind and i said that was what i wanted to do last time and then when i thought things were cool i got blown off..so when he said hed call me tomorrow (meaning last night) i kinda doubted it..why get your hopes up for nothing right? im over that. he was like and parrish..ive been thinking so much about somethings and i love you...i laughed to myself and told him thanx..and said when that starts to mean something to me ill let you know. and he was like thats cool..but i do..and i was like ok well it makes me happy anyways..and its wierd. blah.
we went to steak and shake too! muahaha. i love their fries..so mike called..like always. lol but i didnt answer..so he sent me a text massage like 4 times..i was like wtf. and dani called me and started crying and then she hung up on me because i guess i wasnt helping..idk..but then i fell asleep..so this morning there was no missed call from him..and dani left me a voicemail and mike left me all those wierd i love you text messages..wow..but he claims that he did call and myabe he did because my voicemail was full but w/e. im at the lake awaiting a superbowl party with the family..nice right? but i have an Amer. government test tomorrow!! ahhhhhhh i hate that class. ghey. me and peter had fun at our community service thing this weekend though. it was pretty nifty. i think were going to do it a few more times. :o)
well im out. i miss rroo a little bit for some reason. tehe. tonight is going to be a seriously late evening.