I don't deal well with rejection, even rejection i know is coming.

[thestoryiswrong]

I am not in a good mood today. I should have known i would have been rejected. he warned me, i just didn’t listen i guess. i made a fool of myself this weekend trying to hit on him, what a bad idea. i have never been that forward with anyone in my life, and i sort of hate myself for it. i feel used, i feel ashamed, i feel i dunno what. I had fun that first night we hooked up, it was nice. but ever since it has been awful. I just wish i didn’t see him everywhere on campus and that i didn’t find him to be very attractive. this would make my life easier.

he offered an apology to my question last night, but to be honest? i doubt he meant it.