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burning bridges doesn't help anything
cutting ties with people, and telling them to go away does no good.
however their lingering, stench of false friendship reaks, however unpleasant. its better than the reak of their disaproval.
because once you "know" someone, i think it just sorta sticks with you. how theyd react, what you think theyd think, all that shit.
i think alot about the people i used to know, alot about the people i've had relations with. i unfortunatly base alot of life decisions around them. thats not cool.
emotions are the biggest deal. i need to find a way to get over them. to conquer them. cause they rule all my shit.
though. there is no, "way out" there is no retreat.
i must grin, and bare it. i gotta fucking stand up to life in general. on all accounts. and get seriouse about it. someone isn't always gonna be there.
god damn.
now with the military out of the picture. i feel so aimless.
all i feel lik edoing now i racing.
and thats like.
a million dollars and years of expirience, either of wich i am without.
i ust atain these things. i must be patient.
i CAN do it. and i WILL.
i miss you Lana.
cutting ties with people, and telling them to go away does no good.
however their lingering, stench of false friendship reaks, however unpleasant. its better than the reak of their disaproval.
because once you "know" someone, i think it just sorta sticks with you. how theyd react, what you think theyd think, all that shit.
i think alot about the people i used to know, alot about the people i've had relations with. i unfortunatly base alot of life decisions around them. thats not cool.
emotions are the biggest deal. i need to find a way to get over them. to conquer them. cause they rule all my shit.
though. there is no, "way out" there is no retreat.
i must grin, and bare it. i gotta fucking stand up to life in general. on all accounts. and get seriouse about it. someone isn't always gonna be there.
god damn.
now with the military out of the picture. i feel so aimless.
all i feel lik edoing now i racing.
and thats like.
a million dollars and years of expirience, either of wich i am without.
i ust atain these things. i must be patient.
i CAN do it. and i WILL.
i miss you Lana.