follow your heart.

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its weird ive been on a country kick. i hated it before but i love it now. it makes me happy and puts me in a good mood, haha the songs are just so cute. anyways so the past weekend has been pretty exciting... but it was by far one of the best :] acctually alot of my weekends have been so awsome. camping, spearfishing, alexs, road trip... im just so happy. josh moved to murrieta with his grandma on friday and its really nice acctually, i like it up there. we had to go with his gma up north and drive her pt cruiser back. so 7 hours up one day and 10 hours back the next...we took some detours. stopped at monterey, pismo beach, and santa barbara. everything is just so breath taking. i just cant stop seeing beauty in everything now a days. i love it. we had such a great time i didnt want to leave him. im starting to fall really hard for josh. but i feel myself holding back a little bit and i dunno why. maybe because im scared. i got out of 3 year relationship with jon and he was my first love. i dont want to get hurt again. but i cant let a bad experience take away from such an amazing person josh is. im so comfortable and hes so amazing, treats me like a princess. im just scared of my feelings. he talked about me moving in with him but we both agreed to just wait things out. i want this to work so badly that i dont want to make any mistakes this time. and i feel that moving in would unless your seriously looking into marriage. thats a huge step. im deffinatley not ready for that. im finally getting my life together and am in a good spot, a good frame of mind. and i have him to thank for that. i find myself wanting to completely give in let it all go but some reason i cant. my heart says yes and my head says no. fuck it <333333




oh love, oh love.
all the many colors your made of.
you heal, you bleed.
your the simple truth and your the bigest mystery.
oh love, oh love.