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Well, I realized I had not posted much of anything in here for quite sometime. I guess the time is now. I decided the other day...actually it was not so much a decision as a flood of thoughts while I was driving for three hours. The desire to write always hits me when I am incapable of wielding a pen at that very moment....so there I am attempting to memorize every word I want to write down later. It is terribly inconvienent, let me tell you. Anyway, so these thoughts just hit me while I was driving...with apparently nothing better to do than sing to my blaring music and think about myself. So I decided that maybe every year I am going to define myself. Now this is not terribly deep,exploring and explaining my every thought and all my dreams for my life, this is just a simple deffinition of little things that make me up now...maybe not later, but for now as of September 16th, 2007....this is my deffinition:
I love taking pictures, but rarely take pictures of people and even more rarely take pictures of faces. I guess I fear judgmental eyes. Given the chance between a high-rise apartment in a large city and a shack in the woods. I would choose the shack every time, but a tree house would be even better. I love corndogs, corn nuts, candy corn and popcorn, but I am allergic to corn. I love knowing the definitions of big words. In fact, I use the dictionary more than I would like to admit, but I may not use the words in conversation. I hate shopping and am not fond of things, unless of course the store is a used cd shop and the things are cds. I get addicted to TV shows, but forget about them unless someone watches them with me. The American Dream is lost on me….I don’t even like white picket fences. I love the people I am around and the places I live, but curiosity about other places gets me every time. “I am in love with the ordinary”, but I despise mediocrity. My biggest fear is to not see the world. Change used to terrify me, but now it offers an odd form of security to my every unsure step. The past year has been full of disappointment, and it used to make me angry. I see now God used it to loosen my grip on what I held most dear. I have come to realize that life with out disappointment is perfection and perfection can be tiresome. Who would want that anyway. The soundtrack of my life is perpetually playing, listen closely, you may hear a few notes. I want to visit all 50 states. So if you want to road trip to a place I have never been, give me a call. I hate humidity, heat, sand, and orange juice. This made me a terrible Floridian. When I see mountains, I often get so caught up in the sight that I forget to breathe. That is why I live in Colorado. I may come across as quiet, but I do love to talk and learn about anything and everything from people. Some have told me I am hard to read, but that is only because they are not reading between the lines. I love being genuine with people. If you ever question my actions, know that I attempt to base them on one thing, my relationship with Christ.
signing off