i want to hear what you have to say about me.
this song would come on at a time like this.
yuck.
lifelifelifelifelifelifelifelifelifelife.
I'm honestly at the point where i don't know what to say to anyone, ever about anything.
I'm second guessing everything.
I just hope that people won't ask me, they'll just assume.. or tell me what to do.
It's not working very well, i never realized what a "go to girl" i am, was.
I'm usually sooooo together.
Half of my life is perfect, the other half is in shambles.
i want it all.
i want my best friends in portland with me...Jessica had a dream i died.. we all cried about it, it's pathetic.
i want my best friend to care about anything in my life that has to do with me, not JUST what's happening in my life relationship-wise..anything at all.. to realize i might need him..he's known me best for the past year and there are things happening in my life that only he would understand.too bad.
i want my ex-boyfriend to be content just being my friend, for now. forever.
i want to be enrolled in school and not have to worry about money every second of everyday.
i want a car to show up in front of my house.
i just want to be on a blanket in the park laying in the sun.
i've never felt overwhelmed with good and bad before now.
it's insane.
my brain never ever ever stops going in circles, in squares and back again.
yuck.
i hear summer is beautiful in portland.
I'm going to go to school to do something i love..
i get to live in a beautiful house in a beautiful city with people i absolutely adore...
i get to meet a whole new group of drama loving alternative teenagers.
i'm getting out of california, i'm making something of myself.
i'm buying a vespa, and a new camera.
i'm growing up.
complaints end now.
it's friday, lets make some bad decisions.
p.s. if you're someone i care about i'd like to take portraits of you for my portfolio, actually my real goal is to have everyone on my top friends to have a default taken by me.. haaa... i just want you all to be beautiful.
yeee.. i feel better.
venting... who knnnneew?!?
yuck.
lifelifelifelifelifelifelifelifelifelife.
I'm honestly at the point where i don't know what to say to anyone, ever about anything.
I'm second guessing everything.
I just hope that people won't ask me, they'll just assume.. or tell me what to do.
It's not working very well, i never realized what a "go to girl" i am, was.
I'm usually sooooo together.
Half of my life is perfect, the other half is in shambles.
i want it all.
i want my best friends in portland with me...Jessica had a dream i died.. we all cried about it, it's pathetic.
i want my best friend to care about anything in my life that has to do with me, not JUST what's happening in my life relationship-wise..anything at all.. to realize i might need him..he's known me best for the past year and there are things happening in my life that only he would understand.too bad.
i want my ex-boyfriend to be content just being my friend, for now. forever.
i want to be enrolled in school and not have to worry about money every second of everyday.
i want a car to show up in front of my house.
i just want to be on a blanket in the park laying in the sun.
i've never felt overwhelmed with good and bad before now.
it's insane.
my brain never ever ever stops going in circles, in squares and back again.
yuck.
i hear summer is beautiful in portland.
I'm going to go to school to do something i love..
i get to live in a beautiful house in a beautiful city with people i absolutely adore...
i get to meet a whole new group of drama loving alternative teenagers.
i'm getting out of california, i'm making something of myself.
i'm buying a vespa, and a new camera.
i'm growing up.
complaints end now.
it's friday, lets make some bad decisions.
p.s. if you're someone i care about i'd like to take portraits of you for my portfolio, actually my real goal is to have everyone on my top friends to have a default taken by me.. haaa... i just want you all to be beautiful.
yeee.. i feel better.
venting... who knnnneew?!?