[011] When it Rains it Pours..
I don't think anything in this city will ever be stable. Just when my friends find happiness, they only get pulled down into deeper dispair. I know it's not my fault, or.. nothing I can change. But, I can't help but wish and pray for the best. Not pray to Yevon.. or.. Shiva or.. Odin.. a part of me feels that those are merely shadows of something greater that exists that just hasn't shown it's face yet. So I pray to that.. whatever God.. or Gods that are beyond our reach.
I had another nightmare. It was short, it wasn't nearly as intense as they have been in the past, but it was like a flash. Blood, horrible screams, something..dark... but it looks at me, right through me like it knows I'm watching. Other then that.. I can't remember.
Business has been picking up. I guess I have to thank you for that Mr.Highwind, be sure to call on me if you need any help in the future.
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I wish Rude would trust me. Trust that I'm going to be okay with him. He worries so much about me. I know.. thats a good thing, but I wish he wouldn't so much.. it's not like I don't know how to take care of myself.
Maybe our talk last night.. lessened his worry. I know.. I know if things get bad, and AVALANCHE is captured he would have to kill me. It's his job, I've.. excepted that. I love him.. and I've excepted the fate I've led myself into. I can just pray that things will work out. I can't think about what ifs. We both have our own paths.. they happened to cross now we just have to see where it takes us now. I know that things might not work out.. I know. That doesn't stop me from loving him though. That doesn't change how I feel about him!
I want to make a better world.. for the both of us.. even if it means we wont be together to see it.
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I had another nightmare. It was short, it wasn't nearly as intense as they have been in the past, but it was like a flash. Blood, horrible screams, something..dark... but it looks at me, right through me like it knows I'm watching. Other then that.. I can't remember.
Business has been picking up. I guess I have to thank you for that Mr.Highwind, be sure to call on me if you need any help in the future.
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I wish Rude would trust me. Trust that I'm going to be okay with him. He worries so much about me. I know.. thats a good thing, but I wish he wouldn't so much.. it's not like I don't know how to take care of myself.
Maybe our talk last night.. lessened his worry. I know.. I know if things get bad, and AVALANCHE is captured he would have to kill me. It's his job, I've.. excepted that. I love him.. and I've excepted the fate I've led myself into. I can just pray that things will work out. I can't think about what ifs. We both have our own paths.. they happened to cross now we just have to see where it takes us now. I know that things might not work out.. I know. That doesn't stop me from loving him though. That doesn't change how I feel about him!
I want to make a better world.. for the both of us.. even if it means we wont be together to see it.
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