The encounter with Gin had left me rattled to my core, like I'd been stripped down to something soft and weak; for the first time since I discovered I could fight, I felt--unsure, of myself and of my abilities, as if I'd miscalculated somehow. That was why when it came time for martial arts class, I pushed myself to my absolute limit, in a frenzy to reassure myself of my own strength--and, subsequently, why the walk to Jack's apartment took me longer than it usually did (I kept pausing, looking over my shoulder, as if he'd materialize from the shadows again).
I was anxious to see Jack. It had been a long time since we'd last met, and that encounter had been less than pleasant. It was like something rubber stretching back and snapping; we'd come together just long enough to pull apart again. It was a struggle to keep myself pushing forward, to not traipse back in fear of whatever monster lurked there, whatever confrontation awaited. Glancing up from the ground at last, I saw him waiting up on the fire escape, and the anxiety melted into slush around my feet--it was as if nothing had changed at all.
"Oi!" I called up at him (not terribly loudly; the wind would carry my voice well enough), hands nestled in my pockets. "Get down here before you slip and fall."
I was anxious to see Jack. It had been a long time since we'd last met, and that encounter had been less than pleasant. It was like something rubber stretching back and snapping; we'd come together just long enough to pull apart again. It was a struggle to keep myself pushing forward, to not traipse back in fear of whatever monster lurked there, whatever confrontation awaited. Glancing up from the ground at last, I saw him waiting up on the fire escape, and the anxiety melted into slush around my feet--it was as if nothing had changed at all.
"Oi!" I called up at him (not terribly loudly; the wind would carry my voice well enough), hands nestled in my pockets. "Get down here before you slip and fall."
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