Ho'shit captain, Stefy is updating Livejournal.
..............Holy crap... my last update was July?
Shit-son.
Jah.........UPDATES:
So Brian and I broke up, oddly relieved, yet depressed at the same time. Haven't talked to him in about..two weeks? I think the 'break' has turned into a full out 'break-up'.
Uhm, I've been working a lot, made $140 in total last week.. wootens.
Myspace has caught on like the plague, it's cult-like and creepy, therefore I will never venture there.
I'm unsure of what to do about college, I'm still torn between majors, and my majors do determine where I do go for school. Right now I'm hoping for St. Petersburg College, In Florida.. Ooo Florida how I long to be there..
Sunday my dad and I put up the tree. We had to put up the fake this year, due to us leaving this winter break. I ended up putting the ornaments on myself, Jef didn't help till most of it was done. **All I want is a little family unity, that's all. :(
Dad put the lights on outside, we have the fence covered in lights, the spot lights are green and red, and our flag pole has it's every-year christmas tree decore. Saturday, Mom and I baked a crapload of cookies, and I have no desire to eat any of them. Maybe it's because I was tired of making the dough and baking them.
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I had a long conversation with my grandmother when I was babysitting the Panos's kids. She of course decided to talk about Steven, and how she thinks he's gay only because he said, "Oh, the worst thing for a father is to have a gay son." (In reference to one of his beliefs on why dad has no use for him) She thinks he's only gay to get back at my father. She's so ignorant it's funny. The situation IS killing her, but she isn't helping any. I told her to see someone about it, and she said she 'wants to'. Then fucking do it and stop crying about it to your 17 year old grand daughter. She had high expectations for him, that's understandable. He's not going to be the doctor or lawyer with two kids and a wife that she wanted. She doesn't want to except it, and she somewhat hates him for it. I bitched her out like nothing else, and I said no matter how much you tell Steven you love him, and to what extent you'd do things for him, you still call him over 5 times a day, leaving angry, sobbing, sniffling, BITCHY messages on his answering machine, he knows you are trying to keep tolls on him. She's fucking insane. The whole gay thing is a hard nut to swallow, I know, I knew it for over a year before my mother found out. Mom nearly commited suicide over it, but Jesus Christ, they don't realize what they are doing to him. I just want to punch my grandma in the face and spit in her eye for the bullshit she spews.
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Adieu.
-Stefy.
(PS. PINTO THANKS SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH FOR MY BIRTHDAY GIFT, YOURS IS STILL SITTING ON MY DRESSER... JAH, JUST SITTING THERE... WAITING....JAH.
LOVES JU.)
Shit-son.
Jah.........UPDATES:
So Brian and I broke up, oddly relieved, yet depressed at the same time. Haven't talked to him in about..two weeks? I think the 'break' has turned into a full out 'break-up'.
Uhm, I've been working a lot, made $140 in total last week.. wootens.
Myspace has caught on like the plague, it's cult-like and creepy, therefore I will never venture there.
I'm unsure of what to do about college, I'm still torn between majors, and my majors do determine where I do go for school. Right now I'm hoping for St. Petersburg College, In Florida.. Ooo Florida how I long to be there..
Sunday my dad and I put up the tree. We had to put up the fake this year, due to us leaving this winter break. I ended up putting the ornaments on myself, Jef didn't help till most of it was done. **All I want is a little family unity, that's all. :(
Dad put the lights on outside, we have the fence covered in lights, the spot lights are green and red, and our flag pole has it's every-year christmas tree decore. Saturday, Mom and I baked a crapload of cookies, and I have no desire to eat any of them. Maybe it's because I was tired of making the dough and baking them.
[rant]
I had a long conversation with my grandmother when I was babysitting the Panos's kids. She of course decided to talk about Steven, and how she thinks he's gay only because he said, "Oh, the worst thing for a father is to have a gay son." (In reference to one of his beliefs on why dad has no use for him) She thinks he's only gay to get back at my father. She's so ignorant it's funny. The situation IS killing her, but she isn't helping any. I told her to see someone about it, and she said she 'wants to'. Then fucking do it and stop crying about it to your 17 year old grand daughter. She had high expectations for him, that's understandable. He's not going to be the doctor or lawyer with two kids and a wife that she wanted. She doesn't want to except it, and she somewhat hates him for it. I bitched her out like nothing else, and I said no matter how much you tell Steven you love him, and to what extent you'd do things for him, you still call him over 5 times a day, leaving angry, sobbing, sniffling, BITCHY messages on his answering machine, he knows you are trying to keep tolls on him. She's fucking insane. The whole gay thing is a hard nut to swallow, I know, I knew it for over a year before my mother found out. Mom nearly commited suicide over it, but Jesus Christ, they don't realize what they are doing to him. I just want to punch my grandma in the face and spit in her eye for the bullshit she spews.
[/rant]
Adieu.
-Stefy.
(PS. PINTO THANKS SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH FOR MY BIRTHDAY GIFT, YOURS IS STILL SITTING ON MY DRESSER... JAH, JUST SITTING THERE... WAITING....JAH.
LOVES JU.)