Will I Ever Do Anyting Right?
Day Two of Easter Vacation:
So i sat around for another couple of hours doing nothing but getting dumber and fatter, i did go to see karen and joe in living stations at saint anthonys tonight afterwords a couple of us went to barns and noble to hang around, saw a couple of books i liked but most importantly i noticed something tonight. Karen is absolutly one of my best friends a matter of fact she is my best friend, we get along so well and that is why i knew if i dident ask her out i would regret that for the rest of my life, so last week i did and she turned me down because she dident want to ruin our friendship, well today it seemed like she was trying to stay away from me but not let me know, idk maybe im just being stupid, matter of fact i probly am but still now i feel like asking her out might be the biggest regret of my life, we use to be so close i dont know what happend. i hope she was just off tonight but i dont think so, she is a person who is so exicted when she sees one of her friends and will run up and attack them with a hug or someing like that, after mass today she grabed my arm for some reson and when she noticed it was me she apologized and let go, i think she thought i was delubia. When i asked her out i just wanted to get to know her better she is such and amazing and interesting person i wanted to really get to know her but know im afried im gonna get to know her less, Many of my friends dont inclued me in things they do and she alwase did i just hope were not parting buecause i asked her out, there are so few friends like her she can never be replaced. let me know if its just me...IM SO CONFUSED!!
P.s
To all my friends out there that help me when im down thank you so much it means alot even if i dont say it enough and I hope karen doesent find out about this journal i dont want her to feel bad or anyting like that i know she dident want to hert my feelings and i would feel terrible if she felt bad about any of this.
So i sat around for another couple of hours doing nothing but getting dumber and fatter, i did go to see karen and joe in living stations at saint anthonys tonight afterwords a couple of us went to barns and noble to hang around, saw a couple of books i liked but most importantly i noticed something tonight. Karen is absolutly one of my best friends a matter of fact she is my best friend, we get along so well and that is why i knew if i dident ask her out i would regret that for the rest of my life, so last week i did and she turned me down because she dident want to ruin our friendship, well today it seemed like she was trying to stay away from me but not let me know, idk maybe im just being stupid, matter of fact i probly am but still now i feel like asking her out might be the biggest regret of my life, we use to be so close i dont know what happend. i hope she was just off tonight but i dont think so, she is a person who is so exicted when she sees one of her friends and will run up and attack them with a hug or someing like that, after mass today she grabed my arm for some reson and when she noticed it was me she apologized and let go, i think she thought i was delubia. When i asked her out i just wanted to get to know her better she is such and amazing and interesting person i wanted to really get to know her but know im afried im gonna get to know her less, Many of my friends dont inclued me in things they do and she alwase did i just hope were not parting buecause i asked her out, there are so few friends like her she can never be replaced. let me know if its just me...IM SO CONFUSED!!
P.s
To all my friends out there that help me when im down thank you so much it means alot even if i dont say it enough and I hope karen doesent find out about this journal i dont want her to feel bad or anyting like that i know she dident want to hert my feelings and i would feel terrible if she felt bad about any of this.