Various Thoughts
Lately I have been pondering why it is that I care so much about what others think of me. I'm very conscious of this. I am very well aware of the fact that neglecting the thoughts of others regarding myself would aid me in feeling better about myself. As it is now, however, when I know someone doesn't like me, or is angry with me, I lose it. Part of me thinks it's because I care SO much about the people around me that I don't want to see them hurt or upset. Another part of me is scared to death, thinking that maybe I only care because I'm not solid enough in how I feel about myself. Why should I really give a rats ass that someone doesn't like me when I have pleanty of others in my life that do? Maybe it's because sometimes, I'm forced to face these people. And how do you act around someone who you can feel, almost to the point of FACT, doesn't like you? I mean, I always try to be polite, but how on Earth can you look someone in the eyes and love them when they don't for one second love you?! *sigh* I feel the need to go on, yet I know not what to say. At this point I'm babbling about meaningless things...