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You know what I am not going to be upset.
I am not going to be upset over the current things that my "friends" have put me through.
I'm not going to care that EVERYSINGLE thing I do ends up offending a large mass of people.
This is just highschool, and I am not going to freak over this little shit. I am not going to get upset just because no one can stand me here.
I say something, in a completly light tone and everyone takes it the wrong way and totally hates me.
again
and again
and again
And recently, it wasn't like a instant messege or something else online. You know, that is differn't... it is hard to read tone online. It is something I completly fail at but in real life.
In the auditorium. In the cafetira. When I was just speaking loosley, when I wasn't calling you a fool, when I was just being paranoid because with people that is the way I have to be, just being paranoid that you as a humen being made a mistake, I don't think anyone should be offended because of that.
And yes I was annoyed with the recent action you did to 'the book' so yes I quit, but um? that doesn't meen I am annoyed with you as a person. It just means the book is way to stressfull for me, and I am to impatient with all of the moronic drabblings in it.
It doesn't mean I am pissed off with YOU.
It really means my dislike for people are growing, and your just provoking it.
You stupid highschool drama is just one giant provation.
And just UGH. I don't want to deal with this lame immaturity anymore. I just wish I can make new friends so I don't have to be stuck in this clique all the time. If I was in more then one clique then maybe, I dunno I would be cool now but no...
I am with the same overdramatic, senstive, personalites all day long and yes, after awhile that immaturity does get annoying.
I am only humen.
And, yes highschool relationships is a big part of highschool career's but currently I am just trying to get out of my antisocial phase. Currently I am just trying to build up relationships with people so I can have at least one more friend besides Lucas.
Currently that is my goal, and yes I don't want a relationship right now. Relationships are a totall left field, right now I just want to deal with the issue at hand. Work at friendships that DONT EVEN MATTER. Just so I don't cry for the the next three years, which is just idiotic because I should spend this time on piano and education which will help my future so I can have a good and healthy eighty years because hmm that is just a tad bit important.
AND GOD I am such a hypocrite. This is the messege that Lucas was trying to tell me earlier that I was totally blinded too, and just UGHHH.
I am just going to shut up for the rest of the day.
Even when Lucas come I am just going to be QUIET, so that Juu-chan doesn't get annoyed with me.
Because that defintly matters?
Because I am defintly not contradicting myself right now?
Ugh, I dunno
Bye.
<3 the girl you hate
-nk
I am not going to be upset over the current things that my "friends" have put me through.
I'm not going to care that EVERYSINGLE thing I do ends up offending a large mass of people.
This is just highschool, and I am not going to freak over this little shit. I am not going to get upset just because no one can stand me here.
I say something, in a completly light tone and everyone takes it the wrong way and totally hates me.
again
and again
and again
And recently, it wasn't like a instant messege or something else online. You know, that is differn't... it is hard to read tone online. It is something I completly fail at but in real life.
In the auditorium. In the cafetira. When I was just speaking loosley, when I wasn't calling you a fool, when I was just being paranoid because with people that is the way I have to be, just being paranoid that you as a humen being made a mistake, I don't think anyone should be offended because of that.
And yes I was annoyed with the recent action you did to 'the book' so yes I quit, but um? that doesn't meen I am annoyed with you as a person. It just means the book is way to stressfull for me, and I am to impatient with all of the moronic drabblings in it.
It doesn't mean I am pissed off with YOU.
It really means my dislike for people are growing, and your just provoking it.
You stupid highschool drama is just one giant provation.
And just UGH. I don't want to deal with this lame immaturity anymore. I just wish I can make new friends so I don't have to be stuck in this clique all the time. If I was in more then one clique then maybe, I dunno I would be cool now but no...
I am with the same overdramatic, senstive, personalites all day long and yes, after awhile that immaturity does get annoying.
I am only humen.
And, yes highschool relationships is a big part of highschool career's but currently I am just trying to get out of my antisocial phase. Currently I am just trying to build up relationships with people so I can have at least one more friend besides Lucas.
Currently that is my goal, and yes I don't want a relationship right now. Relationships are a totall left field, right now I just want to deal with the issue at hand. Work at friendships that DONT EVEN MATTER. Just so I don't cry for the the next three years, which is just idiotic because I should spend this time on piano and education which will help my future so I can have a good and healthy eighty years because hmm that is just a tad bit important.
AND GOD I am such a hypocrite. This is the messege that Lucas was trying to tell me earlier that I was totally blinded too, and just UGHHH.
I am just going to shut up for the rest of the day.
Even when Lucas come I am just going to be QUIET, so that Juu-chan doesn't get annoyed with me.
Because that defintly matters?
Because I am defintly not contradicting myself right now?
Ugh, I dunno
Bye.
<3 the girl you hate
-nk