Shit
I don't know why I do this everytime. I don't like him as any more than friends, but I can't help feeling like I wish that he would hold me. I miss being held. I know that it's not good to want a friend to do that, that being held is something reserved for people who actually care. I just wish so much that someone would care enough to want to comfort me. I don't want anything more. Just to have someone who isn't too disgusted just to give me a hug and that simple affection I need. I am so fucking lonely and depressed. I don't want anything more than just to be held. I don't crave love or anything more than just someone to not be afraid to show me some simple physical affection. I'm so fucking pathetic.