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Yup.. so I guess I'm updating again.. haha I know it doesn't happen often. Yesterday was the pep rallies at school or whatever but that's not really what I want to write about..
Last night I was talking to so many people on AIM... it seems like everyone has problems these days for one reason or another.. not that I don't have problems.. mine are just.. different? Anyway It's really hard for me to describe how I was feeling yesterday while talking to all these people online. I was having deep meaningful conversations with all of them trying to help them with their problems.. well.. I couldn't necessarily help them but I could try and make them feel better. I felt kind of bad though because I would be talking to one person and get so involed in that conversation and temporarily forget about the others that I was also talking to. So the result was kind of like jumping from one person to another. Meanwhile, I was also talking to my friend Bianca from California. I havn't talked to her in so long and it felt so.. nostalgic? The summer that I met her (well not physically, just online) we would like e-mail each other every day and we had a lot of common problems. Then school kinda started I guess and we weren't really in touch anymore. Soo, it was really nice talking to her and hopefully we could keep in touch better now. She was trying to get me to show her a picture of me and Tiffany but the only one I have is from the band trip and it's all dark and stuff and everyone looks all dead and tired so I really didn't want to show her it. But, she did show me some pictures so I guess I kind of owe her now.. But I look really bad in pictures!
As I said before I do have problems, they are just kind of different. There's one thing that's been bothering me lately... and Its been on my mind for a long time.. It used to not bother me and I just blamed it on my shyness.. but now It bothers me more every day... I feel like somehow I should appologize? but that makes no sense! How could I appologize for NOT doing something and regretting it? Don't you normally appologize for something that you actually did? Ahh don't mind me I don't know what I'm talking about it! Well anyway, I was asking Bianca for advice about it and the way she described it seemed almost like a dream.. but what really hit me is the fact that I'm the only one stopping that "dream" from comming true. Yeah.. you all probably think I'm crazy now so I'll stop.. I would be really surprised if anyone knew what I was talking about..
note to self: stuff i should do... e-mail Asami, e-mail Bianca, college essay!
Last night I was talking to so many people on AIM... it seems like everyone has problems these days for one reason or another.. not that I don't have problems.. mine are just.. different? Anyway It's really hard for me to describe how I was feeling yesterday while talking to all these people online. I was having deep meaningful conversations with all of them trying to help them with their problems.. well.. I couldn't necessarily help them but I could try and make them feel better. I felt kind of bad though because I would be talking to one person and get so involed in that conversation and temporarily forget about the others that I was also talking to. So the result was kind of like jumping from one person to another. Meanwhile, I was also talking to my friend Bianca from California. I havn't talked to her in so long and it felt so.. nostalgic? The summer that I met her (well not physically, just online) we would like e-mail each other every day and we had a lot of common problems. Then school kinda started I guess and we weren't really in touch anymore. Soo, it was really nice talking to her and hopefully we could keep in touch better now. She was trying to get me to show her a picture of me and Tiffany but the only one I have is from the band trip and it's all dark and stuff and everyone looks all dead and tired so I really didn't want to show her it. But, she did show me some pictures so I guess I kind of owe her now.. But I look really bad in pictures!
As I said before I do have problems, they are just kind of different. There's one thing that's been bothering me lately... and Its been on my mind for a long time.. It used to not bother me and I just blamed it on my shyness.. but now It bothers me more every day... I feel like somehow I should appologize? but that makes no sense! How could I appologize for NOT doing something and regretting it? Don't you normally appologize for something that you actually did? Ahh don't mind me I don't know what I'm talking about it! Well anyway, I was asking Bianca for advice about it and the way she described it seemed almost like a dream.. but what really hit me is the fact that I'm the only one stopping that "dream" from comming true. Yeah.. you all probably think I'm crazy now so I'll stop.. I would be really surprised if anyone knew what I was talking about..
note to self: stuff i should do... e-mail Asami, e-mail Bianca, college essay!