"I'll always remember us in the sun, now I'm shining..."

[thesorrow]

tonight I walked into barnie's coffee and they were playing the low level owl vol. 1 cd. you know, that little band called the appleseed cast who just happens to be my favorite band? I asked this one girl whose it was. she was the owner of a mean face, a haughty response, and thoroughly dismissive eyes. dissuaded, I turned away. then the other girl walks out from the back. you know, that other girl. the one with the choppy, short hair. the tight blue jeans, the cute butt, the beat-up reeboks. she was the willing vessel of emo gratuity and we shared flirty eyes. shoulda' talked to her I should've.

at dinner in the cheesecake factory, girl aged three years, cute as a pale moon tending a starry night, eyed me with childlike. innocent. zeal. she ran over from the other table, jumped in my lap, and squealed with delight. made my day, my night, my future reflection, maybe my whole life. children used to be drawn to my spirit all the time. and I miss that.

I got a huge promotion at work. I start tomorrow. I'm nervous tomorrow. I'm too tired to be nervous. the universe came to play by the riverside. and I let it. the treetops exploded with light. and I let it. god created a balance where you are the light.

there is a balance and I reflect it.

"I'll always remember us in the sun,
now I'm shining..."