the opposing forces of logic and of love.

[thesongoflove]

when handling with issues involving emotions, matters of the heart, i have always been careful and deliberate.
it took me more than just a few lessons to learn.
these lessons, they may involve myself but most of the time, they are just observations.

i remember, back when i was secondary3, one of my good friends experienced a breakup.
she steadily walked to the toilet behind the canteen and the rest followed.
looking completely fine, she walked to the nearest cubicle, took some toilet paper and started crying.
i wondered to myself if she was just seeking attention.
how could someone who behaved normally a few minutes ago looked so vulnerable in just an instant?
after all, it was just a casual relationship.
why let the emotions run so deep? why allow someone to hurt you?
but i didnt know better then.

i always believe that the head should rule the heart. 
the best choice can be made only when you are rationale.
i think i am rather protective of myself.
someone may be able to walk into my life but that person may not be able to walk into my heart.

however, sometimes, despite my greatest conscious efforts, emotions still take control. 
that being said, it's high time i get my life back on the right track.