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It's been a while since my last update and I don't know where to start.
Life has been,...well...amazing. It never ceases to amaze me with the lessons I learn each day, and the people I let into my life.
I have opened up more to others in this past year, than I have previous years since I moved here to New York. To be honest, most people don't know about my life before I started ninth grade...except for the small bits about me living in other countries/states. I have changed so much as a person that when I look back...I don't recognize who I even was.
A loser
A geek
A loner
Attitude
Mean
Angry
Disruptive
Eating disorder
Social disorder
pretty much damaged
I guess, in a way, I am ashamed of who I was and I bury the old Amanda underneath the massive mountains of layers I shed to become the one I am today. A person who I am so happy with. Slowly...slowly I am learning to trust people again [even though it has taken close to 5 years] and slowly I am letting them into my life, something I have kept closely guarded for a very very long time.
Mahh, I sound so god damn emo.
Home is good, home is great, home is extremely boring. I can not wait until the time I return to Plattsburgh, and actually do something with my life. To end this extended time of boorish nature, I have taken it upon myself to throw a party. I don't know when it's going to happen, but it's going to happen soon. I just have to notify the correct people, get money for alcohol, get the alcohol [which won't be a problem, since I am...well...a Fio Rito], and let the fun run its course.
I miss my friends. A lot. Which is funny, because I don't naturally miss people. I can't wait until I move into our suite...which is probably the worst idea we have ever come up with...and just live again. I feel so blahh here at home...I do nothing practically every day.
Except dye my hair of course.
It is now a new color! I had gone to the store the other day intending to purchase the color I have been currently using, only to find that it was the only hair dye that was sold out. Great huh? Well...after two minutes of debating whether or not I should go with a new dye, I finally concluded that even though this shade is amazing amazing amazing AMAZING like woah, I needed a change.
My hair is still red, but a darker red. More ruby in it's color, and dark....really dark. Like...kinda brownish red dark.
I guess I like it, I'm still not sure.
I guess that concludes my life up to now, this very moment. I'll update as soon as I can...or as soon as something exciting happens in my life.
PEACE
Life has been,...well...amazing. It never ceases to amaze me with the lessons I learn each day, and the people I let into my life.
I have opened up more to others in this past year, than I have previous years since I moved here to New York. To be honest, most people don't know about my life before I started ninth grade...except for the small bits about me living in other countries/states. I have changed so much as a person that when I look back...I don't recognize who I even was.
A loser
A geek
A loner
Attitude
Mean
Angry
Disruptive
Eating disorder
Social disorder
pretty much damaged
I guess, in a way, I am ashamed of who I was and I bury the old Amanda underneath the massive mountains of layers I shed to become the one I am today. A person who I am so happy with. Slowly...slowly I am learning to trust people again [even though it has taken close to 5 years] and slowly I am letting them into my life, something I have kept closely guarded for a very very long time.
Mahh, I sound so god damn emo.
Home is good, home is great, home is extremely boring. I can not wait until the time I return to Plattsburgh, and actually do something with my life. To end this extended time of boorish nature, I have taken it upon myself to throw a party. I don't know when it's going to happen, but it's going to happen soon. I just have to notify the correct people, get money for alcohol, get the alcohol [which won't be a problem, since I am...well...a Fio Rito], and let the fun run its course.
I miss my friends. A lot. Which is funny, because I don't naturally miss people. I can't wait until I move into our suite...which is probably the worst idea we have ever come up with...and just live again. I feel so blahh here at home...I do nothing practically every day.
Except dye my hair of course.
It is now a new color! I had gone to the store the other day intending to purchase the color I have been currently using, only to find that it was the only hair dye that was sold out. Great huh? Well...after two minutes of debating whether or not I should go with a new dye, I finally concluded that even though this shade is amazing amazing amazing AMAZING like woah, I needed a change.
My hair is still red, but a darker red. More ruby in it's color, and dark....really dark. Like...kinda brownish red dark.
I guess I like it, I'm still not sure.
I guess that concludes my life up to now, this very moment. I'll update as soon as I can...or as soon as something exciting happens in my life.
PEACE