in post-skating bliss
i passed my skating test. i passed. I PASSED! so i am officially in the gold program in which im supposed to choreograph my own program...but i'm not taking classes anymore!!! i cant do spring session, whats more, i think its too late for that anyways, and next year, i wont be here!! ill be college! what a fucker!! but nevertheless, i will go back and visit, often, and skate.
found from all my colleges as of thursday. thursday was literally death day, i got 4 rejections in the time span of 5 hours. i found out i got rejected from JHU at school, which meant i had to try not to look conspicuously upset as i made my way out the door to sob on the grass. and then when i got home, i checked online for brown, yale and cornell, which i obviously didnt get into. but JHU really pisses me off because i worked so hard on that application and for what? nothing, my mom thinks that being asian was a factor since they have 34% asians in the school. fucking being asian. but then again, it has its advantages elsewhere. i feel like i should have applied to more schools, a broader range, b/c now, i have 4 schools that accepted me, and i got waitlisted at williams (which makes being rejected at hopkins even weirder and more illogical), and i dont know where i want to go. with the others at least, i could pick one based on the fact that i really wanted to go there. so now, being rejected from my top 4 schools...i have my 3 safeties and wash u in st louis. id go to wash u, but the problem is that everyone else is offering me scholarships, and wash u isnt. so this makes the financial situation difficult.
i hate how in this country getting an education requires an investment. i mean, everyone doesnt have an equal oppurtunity at education, and lets where thats gotten us. education has become part of the capitalistic scheme, with tuition prices skyrocketing and each university/college functioning as a business, trying to attract more people by using plys like race, diversity, investing money to make the education system better, but to get more people to come to the school it seems than to actually make the education better.
fuck.
well so i have to decide between scripps, wash u in st louis, umass amherst commonwealth college, and BU
let the mania begin...
found from all my colleges as of thursday. thursday was literally death day, i got 4 rejections in the time span of 5 hours. i found out i got rejected from JHU at school, which meant i had to try not to look conspicuously upset as i made my way out the door to sob on the grass. and then when i got home, i checked online for brown, yale and cornell, which i obviously didnt get into. but JHU really pisses me off because i worked so hard on that application and for what? nothing, my mom thinks that being asian was a factor since they have 34% asians in the school. fucking being asian. but then again, it has its advantages elsewhere. i feel like i should have applied to more schools, a broader range, b/c now, i have 4 schools that accepted me, and i got waitlisted at williams (which makes being rejected at hopkins even weirder and more illogical), and i dont know where i want to go. with the others at least, i could pick one based on the fact that i really wanted to go there. so now, being rejected from my top 4 schools...i have my 3 safeties and wash u in st louis. id go to wash u, but the problem is that everyone else is offering me scholarships, and wash u isnt. so this makes the financial situation difficult.
i hate how in this country getting an education requires an investment. i mean, everyone doesnt have an equal oppurtunity at education, and lets where thats gotten us. education has become part of the capitalistic scheme, with tuition prices skyrocketing and each university/college functioning as a business, trying to attract more people by using plys like race, diversity, investing money to make the education system better, but to get more people to come to the school it seems than to actually make the education better.
fuck.
well so i have to decide between scripps, wash u in st louis, umass amherst commonwealth college, and BU
let the mania begin...