It feels a lot like falling in love. It feels like it, but I don't know if it is or not.
To be honest, I'm scared of admitting love. It's something that has never paid off for me, and has always led down a very painful road.
I can see that road. It looks just as dangerous as it always had, and yet I don't stop myself. I know where this is going, but I can't control it.
The fact that Bethany likes me for me; my jokes. That means something to me. The things that I have to say, they matter to her. So few people actually and truthfully care about what I have to say about anything, but Bethany does. She sees past my flaws, and she likes me anyway. She makes me feel like an artist again. She makes me feel like I have worth.
For Bethany, I hope that she and Kevin are happy forever, and maybe one day down the line I'll find that feeling.
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Some of you remember
Neverafter, well, I drew some artwork of the main character for kicks last night. See it
here.
On a related note, I've been thinking about a character for the SH RPG. I want it to be original, and fun to play as, but I'm not really sure what to go for.
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School's okay. I dropped the necessary classes today, and all I have to do now is do well on my exam in Psychology, and everything will be okay. I'm so relieved.
I'm working in the kitchen for the rest of the week; Kitchen FTW! I've got twenty six hours all together this week, how cool is that?