i hate myself.
george is being 'sorry' about everything from the other day. apparently it was supposed to be a joke, and he didn't think i cared. what the fuck? being called a whore and a slut, just because of the way i 'act'? being called an emo bitch just because of the way i 'dress'? i don't fucking understand how he can be sorry. how he got all his friends into that chatroom and forced them all to shout stuff at me, and tell me he was going to get people to beat me up. i couldn't handle it. i don't like him at all. i really don't. okay moving on to other things. nicole's being really.. distant. i guess it's cause of the whole thing that happened last week. she went into town with jessie today. anyway i'm not really bothered anymore. laura and louise apparently had talked about our 'friendship' and both want to be best friends with me. i dunno, i hate labelling friendships. anyway, jasper asked me for all my sharp things today. but i don't think i need to give them to him. all i have is a blade. i'm not even gonna use that. i have way too many cuts on my stomach right now. i need them to fade. sarah has an eating disorder. she's only just coming to terms with it. i've never even met her and i love her more than i love my fucking self. she's always there when i need to laugh, and although i don't cry to her or anything, i'm sure i would if she came to fucking stratford {hint hint bitch. lol}. i love you sarah. i really really want to go see from autumn to ashes. i'm gonna cry if i can't get tickets.. but none of my friends like them, and i doubt lucy would come with me. i'm not going my myself. god it's so stupid. i'm gonna get my hair cut soon hopefully. the only reason i really want it done is so i won't have to straighten it everyday, and cause i don't like the color. okay that's all i have to say. i'm meeting laura tomorrow around 1230 and we're gonna go to blockbuster and get movies and stuff, and be lazy all day. i've fallen in love with damien rice. well, not him. his music. yeah that's all. love you all xox.