Is there nowhere else to run? Is there room for one more sun?
So, the rest of my life seems to be coming together. As much as it always seemed like there was a decision to make, I really made my decision a long time ago. I was just afraid to say it. It seemed lofty. But there's nothing else I can do. I want to sing. And that's that. And now I know where I will apply. I have most of my repertoire. I'm doing this, and I'm excited.
That said, it's the now that seems to be the problem. Like, honestly people, what the hell. I'm used to being oblivious and left alone. Yes, I was lonely and yes, I disliked that. But I wasn't really that lonely. I've always had friends. I mean, look at the people I've known at BC. What with the roommates I've had and the other amazing friends, I wasn't suffering from lack of companionship. It's becoming more clear that I was satisfied with my "loneliness." Independence more like it. But now, all of a sudden we're seniors. And apparently there isn't time to figure out what's what. We need to speed it up, test waters we've never been in. I think everyone's guilty of this. I'm just scared. That's what I am. Things have accelerated and I don't know what to do with them.
Blah, thanks for reading if you are, even though I doubt you understand. My ego wants a forum for my incoherent thoughts. Wow, we're such a voyeuristic and vain society.
That said, it's the now that seems to be the problem. Like, honestly people, what the hell. I'm used to being oblivious and left alone. Yes, I was lonely and yes, I disliked that. But I wasn't really that lonely. I've always had friends. I mean, look at the people I've known at BC. What with the roommates I've had and the other amazing friends, I wasn't suffering from lack of companionship. It's becoming more clear that I was satisfied with my "loneliness." Independence more like it. But now, all of a sudden we're seniors. And apparently there isn't time to figure out what's what. We need to speed it up, test waters we've never been in. I think everyone's guilty of this. I'm just scared. That's what I am. Things have accelerated and I don't know what to do with them.
Blah, thanks for reading if you are, even though I doubt you understand. My ego wants a forum for my incoherent thoughts. Wow, we're such a voyeuristic and vain society.