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I'm going to try real, real hard to open up to people.
I'm tired of being lonely!
And I don't want Matt to be the only human being I spend time with.
I'm just finding it so hard...to find people who I can actually trust and confide in.
Old friends are really letting me down at a time when I need them most. If only they could pull their heads out of their asses...and *remember*. I don't even think they know who I am anymore. Nor do they give a damn. I'm keeping things to myself right now...that are really tearing me apart inside. I want to get it all out! I want advice! I want someone to be here for me! And it's sad that in maybe..a month's time..I already feel closer to my new friend Andrea...than I have ever felt for my other so-called friends. Trust. is an important thing...and in attempts to find new friendships...I've realized how enirely rare it really is. Honestly. (Example: Inviting an old work buddy from Tim Horton's over, Melanie...who had one too many drinks, and begged for me to let them kiss Matt...my boyfriend...whom I reside with...WHO DOES THAT!? Ew.)
Andrea you're amazing.
Lori, you've remained true.
Nicole, come back to Buffalo.
and Jackie...as if you would even read my livejournal...SAVE OUR FRIENDSHIP. Hot damn, it used to be something special. Now it's so ...limited?
I feel like I have so much to share...influence...confide...and no one to experience this with. It's a very empty feeling.
Honest.
I'm tired of being lonely!
And I don't want Matt to be the only human being I spend time with.
I'm just finding it so hard...to find people who I can actually trust and confide in.
Old friends are really letting me down at a time when I need them most. If only they could pull their heads out of their asses...and *remember*. I don't even think they know who I am anymore. Nor do they give a damn. I'm keeping things to myself right now...that are really tearing me apart inside. I want to get it all out! I want advice! I want someone to be here for me! And it's sad that in maybe..a month's time..I already feel closer to my new friend Andrea...than I have ever felt for my other so-called friends. Trust. is an important thing...and in attempts to find new friendships...I've realized how enirely rare it really is. Honestly. (Example: Inviting an old work buddy from Tim Horton's over, Melanie...who had one too many drinks, and begged for me to let them kiss Matt...my boyfriend...whom I reside with...WHO DOES THAT!? Ew.)
Andrea you're amazing.
Lori, you've remained true.
Nicole, come back to Buffalo.
and Jackie...as if you would even read my livejournal...SAVE OUR FRIENDSHIP. Hot damn, it used to be something special. Now it's so ...limited?
I feel like I have so much to share...influence...confide...and no one to experience this with. It's a very empty feeling.
Honest.