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[theshotgunside]

i listened today to someone tell me about them being judged,
while i listened i judged this person on how they judge them,
and then i find the person talking judges me.

I'm not a great person i know... but i never used you.
I sometimes use girls for the one thing they want from me.
So am i using them or are they using me.
I've come to find out we use each other
we use each other
but not the ones we care for

I dont know what im always doing wrong
but i will never be mad when i find i am.
im not that great of a person i know.
but at least i know this.

You resort to never telling me
placing blam on the things you yourself control

and by this you come to the conclusion i should know exactly what you want
exactly what you expect from me
and exactly who do you want me to be.

because i cant be you
the perfect portrait of complete confusion
surronded by a million options that could never be like you
broken.

tell me your fucking self
dont leave it to the pages in your journal
dont leave it to the people you dont know half as well as me.
and see yourself for what you really are

a good person that cares
but hates the fact i dont.