hopeless
I feel hopeless, underestimated, and judged. I don't know how to be...i wanna be me but how do i do that without the influence of the outside world pushing in on me? it's inevitable that i show tendancies of rebellion, of insubordination, anarchy, and non-conformity, for the vast majority of these characterisitcs are the same. I don't agree with the worlds outside and ignorant views on everything. how the hell should i kno where i am going if i want to go every where. why should i only have to "do" one field of study? why should i only "live" one dream? My tendonitis has held me back, but I still had the best night in a long time at MCR's Concert! so that goes to show my limitations are not limitations if i put them out of my mind. sure i will pay with suffering but i hold no regrets and that will be my way through life. i have rambled of subject which i tend to do alot and here once again i feel hopeless. If i push out societies views on how i should be and i embrace my tendancies and make them more into characteristics I may not feel so hopless anymore!