mou ii~ *sigh*
this is getting ridiculous.
I cannot stay as tired as I have been recently.
today, I actually almost stayed home from school. I was so tired this morning I almost didn't get up (which would have resulted in much yelling), and I just kinda...did...stuff. this morning. while getting ready for school. I barely even remember most of it.
I finally went upstairs and asked kaa-san if I could stay home, 'cause I was so tired I could barely concentrate on walking up the stairs. she was like..."NO. being tired is no reason to not go to school, you just didn't go to bed early enough last night." yeah, fuck you, kaa-san. x_x I got seven fucking hours of sleep, that's enough.
she even yelled at me in the car when I didn't pay attention to what she was saying. I'm like..."YEAHHELLO."
whatever.
I just can't believe I'm 19 and still have to ask my mother's permission to stay home from school. it fucking sucks dammit.
so I just...didn't go to classes today. I fell asleep in the caffeteria. I figured I wouldn't learn anything in class anyway, why bother to go? --# so yeah, it was difficult sleeping 'cause I have trouble sleeping during the day in general, and people kept shaking the table. it was really fucking annoying. *twitch*
princess, bless him, bought me food. and steph, bless her, let me have a couple sips of her energy drink.
which, in retrospect, was not a good thing, really. utter exhaustion + energy drink = NOT. GOOD. I'm fucking tired but my mind's racing all over the place and I'm mentally hyper but too physically tired to act upon it and I feel like my head's about to explode and I'm finding the dumbest things incredibly funny.
and am currently, with the help of josh, planning the murder of nen-nen's floormates at salem state because they're being fucking dickheads and if she finds one more message along the lines of "die bitch" or "you smell" or "ewwww" for no fucking reason on the whiteboard outside her door I don't care about dorm policies I'm staying the night and introducing myself to these fucking assholes and they will not be happy campers after.
...so yeah, I've been in a bad mood all day and having to wait at the craft center for mum to drive me home and then getting stuck helping her GROCERY SHOP in the cold wet rain and being told, even though I was already in the fucking car, to go put away the shopping cart when she was perfectly capable of doing it haven't helped one bit.
I'm contemplating ...owfuckheadache. x_x nevermind.
...if I weren't so nottiredbuthyperbuttired and hadn't promised princess I'd stay online so I could cheer him up when he got out of work (which may or may not actually work, considering the mood I'm in), I'd be going to bed.
I cannot stay as tired as I have been recently.
today, I actually almost stayed home from school. I was so tired this morning I almost didn't get up (which would have resulted in much yelling), and I just kinda...did...stuff. this morning. while getting ready for school. I barely even remember most of it.
I finally went upstairs and asked kaa-san if I could stay home, 'cause I was so tired I could barely concentrate on walking up the stairs. she was like..."NO. being tired is no reason to not go to school, you just didn't go to bed early enough last night." yeah, fuck you, kaa-san. x_x I got seven fucking hours of sleep, that's enough.
she even yelled at me in the car when I didn't pay attention to what she was saying. I'm like..."YEAHHELLO."
whatever.
I just can't believe I'm 19 and still have to ask my mother's permission to stay home from school. it fucking sucks dammit.
so I just...didn't go to classes today. I fell asleep in the caffeteria. I figured I wouldn't learn anything in class anyway, why bother to go? --# so yeah, it was difficult sleeping 'cause I have trouble sleeping during the day in general, and people kept shaking the table. it was really fucking annoying. *twitch*
princess, bless him, bought me food. and steph, bless her, let me have a couple sips of her energy drink.
which, in retrospect, was not a good thing, really. utter exhaustion + energy drink = NOT. GOOD. I'm fucking tired but my mind's racing all over the place and I'm mentally hyper but too physically tired to act upon it and I feel like my head's about to explode and I'm finding the dumbest things incredibly funny.
and am currently, with the help of josh, planning the murder of nen-nen's floormates at salem state because they're being fucking dickheads and if she finds one more message along the lines of "die bitch" or "you smell" or "ewwww" for no fucking reason on the whiteboard outside her door I don't care about dorm policies I'm staying the night and introducing myself to these fucking assholes and they will not be happy campers after.
...so yeah, I've been in a bad mood all day and having to wait at the craft center for mum to drive me home and then getting stuck helping her GROCERY SHOP in the cold wet rain and being told, even though I was already in the fucking car, to go put away the shopping cart when she was perfectly capable of doing it haven't helped one bit.
I'm contemplating ...owfuckheadache. x_x nevermind.
...if I weren't so nottiredbuthyperbuttired and hadn't promised princess I'd stay online so I could cheer him up when he got out of work (which may or may not actually work, considering the mood I'm in), I'd be going to bed.