I asked myself, "am I dying?" to my surprise a reply came, "not even low self-esteem would ask that"
So I've gotten stoned 3 times, and they were pretty big times, been drunk twice, smoked a bunch of tobacco, and it still hurts. I hate my body, I hate my mind, I hate my paranoid dellusion, why do I bother to wake up every morning to force myself to do stuff I don't like one bit? It doesn't make sense, not one small bit of sense, if I can't stand for two times being dumped, hell, I don't even wanna know for three times. Yeah I don't want simpathy because I know what you're all thinking "God another post like this, can't he just let it go?" and fuck you people thinking that, I'm sorry if you have a higher pain tolerance than me, but you're just gonna have to deal, or get a new friend, my suggestion is #2, it's only a matter of time before this depression turns to anger. So yeah, Cronous is the only thing that minisculy takes my mind off this, so I'm gonna go be addicte3d to it again. L&P