i can't break away
i have a headache that is pounding like 2 fucking jack rabbits in heat.
I left this morning, and I was supposed to go to Rosalie's on Friday. But mom said NO to the bus, I have to take the train. It's OKAY, maybe next weekend. But she was supposed to come this weekend. I wait every weekend hoping I will get to see her, but it hasnt happend yet. SOO. It's been like a month or so since I have seen her and I being really pained by her being so far away. She calls me everyday, but I neeeed to see her ya know? FUCK.. I hella miss her.
THEN this morning sucked ass. Mom got mad because hse thought I was going to get my ass beat by those girls who were fighting in the front yard cuz we saw it and they might think i will rat them out. i would never. I was like WTF..they don't even know me, and I don't even know them. And she blew it out of porpotion. cuz you know, it's my fault they started fighting. what ever
Tomorrow, Loki and Tecky and I are going to go downtown, and I am going to spend the night on Friday and Loki is spending the night Saturday. Cuz our parents need a night each to get it on...what the fuck ever.
I am hella mad. I don't understand myself sometimes. My day will be totally good and I'll still be mad when I get home. I am like BIPOLAR or something. Or maybe just pre-menstrual..
I am on top of all my skool work though...yay?
I feel like fighting right now. i have been the past couple days. I haven't gotten in a fight in a LONG time. I almost beat up roberts ass at SC, i ALMOST did. I was like "well, i won't throw the first punch" Fuck that, i wish i would of. Instead he had the bitch Dorthy stand up for him cuz he is pussy. i still want that guy dead.
FUCKKK
I need to chill the fuck out. I am going to end up hurting someone or myself. I have all this anger waiting to come out. And i know just one day it's going to come out. I hope its not on someone I love or care about. I need a punching bag. I just wanna break shit sometimes. I have alot of anger, and pain, and heartache. But I honestly want someone else to hurt for it. Beat the shit out of someone and take it out on them.
FUUCCCKKK... i wanna beat someones ass
or maybe curl in a corner and die...
=love=
ally
I left this morning, and I was supposed to go to Rosalie's on Friday. But mom said NO to the bus, I have to take the train. It's OKAY, maybe next weekend. But she was supposed to come this weekend. I wait every weekend hoping I will get to see her, but it hasnt happend yet. SOO. It's been like a month or so since I have seen her and I being really pained by her being so far away. She calls me everyday, but I neeeed to see her ya know? FUCK.. I hella miss her.
THEN this morning sucked ass. Mom got mad because hse thought I was going to get my ass beat by those girls who were fighting in the front yard cuz we saw it and they might think i will rat them out. i would never. I was like WTF..they don't even know me, and I don't even know them. And she blew it out of porpotion. cuz you know, it's my fault they started fighting. what ever
Tomorrow, Loki and Tecky and I are going to go downtown, and I am going to spend the night on Friday and Loki is spending the night Saturday. Cuz our parents need a night each to get it on...what the fuck ever.
I am hella mad. I don't understand myself sometimes. My day will be totally good and I'll still be mad when I get home. I am like BIPOLAR or something. Or maybe just pre-menstrual..
I am on top of all my skool work though...yay?
I feel like fighting right now. i have been the past couple days. I haven't gotten in a fight in a LONG time. I almost beat up roberts ass at SC, i ALMOST did. I was like "well, i won't throw the first punch" Fuck that, i wish i would of. Instead he had the bitch Dorthy stand up for him cuz he is pussy. i still want that guy dead.
FUCKKK
I need to chill the fuck out. I am going to end up hurting someone or myself. I have all this anger waiting to come out. And i know just one day it's going to come out. I hope its not on someone I love or care about. I need a punching bag. I just wanna break shit sometimes. I have alot of anger, and pain, and heartache. But I honestly want someone else to hurt for it. Beat the shit out of someone and take it out on them.
FUUCCCKKK... i wanna beat someones ass
or maybe curl in a corner and die...
=love=
ally