feels sad
Hey all yup im written . so marvel in my updatitude lol. yea i watched lords of the rings: The Return of the king which is freaking awesome except the punks that thought they was cool cus they had 6 of them and one of me so they thought they where men to try to dis me to make me feel bad and leave so they can be the first one there or so. Yup they onl talked shit when it was all them together when they passed me alone they didnt say anything even if it was only 2 of them.
yup besides that its almost christmas :/ i know alot of peeps love it but i secretly hate it. :( seeing everyone happy together happy paired up while i can never feel that way do to im always only good enough for friendship and thats it cus they dont wanna risk it. yea i know i love the friendship itude but hell i wanna be able to say yes im in love and yes i got someone i can talk to that loves me back but that will never happen cus no matter what ill always be the friend that no one wants to lose by wanting to be my gf but we all know secretly they just dont think im good enough or they mean it - sigh - its like im some kinda monster or so. im looking from the inside of a basement looking out into the world of people happy and so.
come on look at me do i look like. do i look ok or is that the reason why i dont have anyone who would be with me :/.
enough of my whinning. I Hope you all have a good christmas. and if you have someone who loves you . hold them forever never let them go and always make sure they love you and not playing you - remembers his first who played him- cause you never know how unlucky you can be like me to never experienc it or to even embrace the feeling of someone careing for you. - sigh i know im rambling and dont expect anyone to answere nor on my friend list lol since no one ever does or so :/.