May 29, 2008 13:38
Man, I can go from angry to calm in like... a minute flat.
My mom just called and she wanted to talk to me about how manipulative my grandma is and how I should keep her business private etc. etc. etc. Well, I lost my shit. Numero Uno, she's been practicing Buddhism every Saturday and going to church whenever she wants, and she just walks up there like she's the holiest fucking person on the planet and gets communion, and I'm not even Catholic and it pisses me off. I'm not surprised it's enraging to my grandma, who is pretty much a saint. Numero Dos, she has weird, loud, obnoxious butt sex with her dude and expects it to be perfectly cool when you show up at 2pm like you said you would and walk in the house and find them. Well, it's not. Then, when I start chewing your naked ass out and ripping your worthless fuckstick guy apart, you call my aunt to come get me, because I just broke in your house and started screaming at you like a maniac and expect me not to tell her what happened? Then you expect her not to tell my grandma? Really? For serious? Finally, the true digression, the most manipulative bitch I've ever met is trying to tell me that I shouldn't allow myself to be manipulated? What the fuck do you think I've been trying to do all these years by separating myself from you? WTF? WTF? WTF? WTF? !!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Crazy bitch!
I just lost my fucking shit. Then, someone calls, and I hang up on her and try to be cordial with him as he explains that he can't come in town this weekend for reasons that are perfectly acceptable, but I'm still in enraged mode and I'm about to freak out. I'm biting my fists and stomping and tears are welling up and I'm so fucking angry...
then the calm hits.
Done.
There have got to be repercussions to that kind of inverted anger.