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So I talked to Enrique last night.
It was weird.
He told me that I was being selfish because I don't understand where he is coming from when it comes to the death of his son.
No I don't.
But I am not selfish.
The only thing I care about right now is this baby.
That is not being selfish!
I tried to explain that to him but he doesn't seem to get it.
I don't want to fight with him.
I really care about him still, even through this.
And I really want him in the baby's life in everyway possible.
I can't do this alone, but if I must then I will and I will be the best mother ever.
My mom told me that we need to put all our problems aside and focus on the now.
Duh, I keep trying to tell him that.
I mean it's not about what we have gone through in our past, or what we are currently dealing with.
Yes, put them all aside.
The baby is number one for the rest of our lives.
Shit, I could give a million reasons as to why I am not ready to have a child, but we made one and an abortion is not the answer. We must live with this joy we have been blessed with.
If I could have my way Enrique would be in this childs life 100%.
He would be the great father I know he'll be.
I told him last night that I don't care what he is to me...I don't want anything from him for myself...all I want is for him to be a father to this child.
All I can do is hope and pray.
I'm not going to try and force him into anything. It's totally up to him.
I just really hope that things clear up between the two of us and we start to focus on what really matters.
It was weird.
He told me that I was being selfish because I don't understand where he is coming from when it comes to the death of his son.
No I don't.
But I am not selfish.
The only thing I care about right now is this baby.
That is not being selfish!
I tried to explain that to him but he doesn't seem to get it.
I don't want to fight with him.
I really care about him still, even through this.
And I really want him in the baby's life in everyway possible.
I can't do this alone, but if I must then I will and I will be the best mother ever.
My mom told me that we need to put all our problems aside and focus on the now.
Duh, I keep trying to tell him that.
I mean it's not about what we have gone through in our past, or what we are currently dealing with.
Yes, put them all aside.
The baby is number one for the rest of our lives.
Shit, I could give a million reasons as to why I am not ready to have a child, but we made one and an abortion is not the answer. We must live with this joy we have been blessed with.
If I could have my way Enrique would be in this childs life 100%.
He would be the great father I know he'll be.
I told him last night that I don't care what he is to me...I don't want anything from him for myself...all I want is for him to be a father to this child.
All I can do is hope and pray.
I'm not going to try and force him into anything. It's totally up to him.
I just really hope that things clear up between the two of us and we start to focus on what really matters.