[multichapter] baby blue: part 5: chapter 27
Title: Baby Blue: Part 5: Chapter 27
Pairing: JunDa
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 1430
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, and only the words are mine.
Summary: They knew that moving forward would be hard, but with each hurdle the happiness they deserve seems further and further away.
A/N: So here it is - the last chapter!!
“Did you do it?” Taguchi asked the moment Ueda walked through the door,.
Ueda paused by the entrance to the living room and shook his head slowly “Of course I didn't...I had every intention of doing it but in the end...I can't...Junno I'm so sorry.”
He sighed, a sigh that wasn't anywhere near the size of the relieved one he felt sagging in his chest. “It was just a stupid fight.”
“Not just about the fight.” Ueda amended. “About all of this. Junno I did it again...everything was perfect and I pushed for more...I pushed for impossible and all I did was hurt you...I always do this, I make a mountain of nothing and it only hurts us both. I just want it to stop.”
“But what about a baby?” Taguchi asked, he couldn't just forget.
“I want a baby, I do, I still really, really do, but not this much, not like this. What I want more than a baby is for us to be together and to be happy...” Ueda assured him.
“Do you mean it?” He wanted to believe it, he wanted to so badly but the pain was still raw enough that he couldn't quite forget how many other times they'd thought that what they had was all they could want, how many other times there'd been something else.
“I swear.” Ueda promised. “If I ever suggest anything so stupid again then punch me...”
Taguchi nodded sombrely, but then his lips started to twitch at Ueda's serious expression. Like he'd take on a boxer. He righted his expression quickly because there was more, other things that they'd decided on that were left hanging. “And the apartment?” he asked hopefully.
Ueda nodded quickly. “I'll call the realtor tomorrow” Then he looked sheepishly down at the ground. “And I'll apologise to Mayuko for dragging her into this.” Taguchi owed her an apology too, both of them had been so unreasonable, so obtrusive. “I've been an asshole this past week.”
It felt like it had been more than a week, it felt like this tension had been hanging over them for months rather than days. It felt like months since their wedding night. “We're supposed to be basking in the honeymoon period still...” Taguchi said glumly.
“It's not too late to go back to that...we didn't do anything stupid.” Ueda said hopefully and Taguchi felt his heart dropping into his stomach, could they really say that?
“I did.” he admitted. “When I was at Mayuko's...I...we...” he swallowed heavily as understanding dawned cross Ueda's face, overshadowed quickly by some mix of disappointment and guilt. “It didn't feel right...and I couldn't finish...but...”
Ueda shook his head slowly, a sad smile forming on his lips. “It doesn't matter what you did...it was for me. I'm the one to blame for that. Junno, I'm so sorry that I put you through that...”
Taguchi shook his head. “You didn't. I...”
Ueda cut him off again. “I did. I know I did, I knew even before I invited her back with us that you were unsure...when she came back then I was sure you were unsure, and when we sent her home...I pushed you to try again, I guilted you into it even though I knew you didn't want to. I should never have done that...”
He could hear the thickness in Ueda's voice and his own felt just as thick when he used it again “It's OK.”
“It's not.” Ueda insisted, a few tears dropping as he shook his head. “Tell me what I can do to make it up to you.”
What Taguchi wanted to say was that Ueda didn't need to do anything, that Taguchi would forgive him no matter what because that's what love is. He knew that Ueda would argue though, so instead he tried a shaky smile. “You could help me forget what she felt like...”
Ueda nodded quickly. “Anything.” Ueda was in his arms in seconds and Taguchi wrapped them around him. It felt, for just a fleeting moment like everything was going to be alright. Taguchi inhaled deeply, held on to the feeling because he knew, somehow, that they would be. They've come through hardships before, they will go through them again no doubt, all that mattered was that Ueda was here with him, willing to try.
“I love you.” Taguchi said, looking down at the love of his life, his best friend, his husband “I love you so fucking much.”
“I know.” Ueda answered. “I love you too...”
“I know.” Taguchi replied, his hand stroking Ueda's cheek, stroking away a week, what felt like more than a weeks worth of tears, of heartache. “As long as we have that...we have everything.”
“How could I think I wanted anything more than this?” Ueda asked, his voice quiet. Taguchi didn't answer, but his eyes roamed Ueda's face as his thumb stroked over Ueda's cheekbone and then he leaned in to kiss Ueda deeply.
Ueda kissed him back slowly jut a couple of times, and then he pulled away, his hands finding Taguchi's and coaxing him along with him as he half turned and lead the way down the hallway to the bedroom.
As soon as Ueda was on the bed, Taguchi climbed on after him, pushing him down onto his back so that he could lean over and kiss him again, and it was easy, just like that to sink into it. It was nothing like kissing Mayuko, Ueda's lips were just the perfect amount of plush with that edge of roughness that made Taguchi feel simultaneously in control and vulnerable. They were the perfect amount of moist, sliding just right against his own and when they parted there was just the right amount of pressure, the right amount of demanding in the movement of his tongue.
When Taguchi peeled the clothes from Ueda's body, it was the body he longed for, firm and toned, muscular, strong. His lips roamed across Ueda's chest, flicking momentarily at a nipple before moving down, kissing his way along the ridges and dips of Ueda's abs and the sound that Ueda let out at the sensation was more grunt than moan. It was even more grunt than moan once their clothes were removed, as Taguchi slid lubed fingers into the tight muscle of Ueda's ass. It was just the right amount of pressure, the perfect slide, his fingers both protested and sucked in while Ueda pushed back against his hand.
And when their bodies finally united it was bliss. It was perfect. Taguchi felt like he could never want anything else but to be connected to this man, to Ueda, for the rest of his life.
“I love you.” Taguchi gasped, because it felt like he could never say it enough. “I love you.” and he kissed Ueda hard, his hips driving harder, pushing into the body that was the perfect tightness, the perfect slickness.
Ueda moaned, his hips canting ever so slightly, his hand around his cock moving faster, his other hand weaving into Taguchi's hair, clenching so hard it almost hurt, tugging Taguchi's head down and Ueda was kissing him just the right amount of rough.
“I love you.” Ueda answered gruffly, right before Taguchi saw stars. Orgasm surging through him, and the walls constricting around him with Ueda's orgasm only took him higher, floating, his hips slowing, then stopping, and their mouths found each other once again as they struggled to catch their breaths through unrelenting kisses.
“Shige said he'll talk to Johnny about writing a script for our movie.” Ueda said airily what might have been hours later, his head rising and falling with Taguchi's steady breathing.
“Shige?” Taguchi asked, his hand pausing in it's stroking of Ueda's hair.
“I bumped into him while I was out.” Ueda admitted. “He may have stopped me from doing something stupid and talked a bit of sense into me. He gets it.” He paused slightly as though he hadn't meant to say it but continued anyway “He understands what we're going through, and he's a good writer, he'll be able to tell them all the truth.”
“He understands?” Taguchi asked. “Koyama?” he didn't wait for Ueda's reply. “That day in the elevator...when the poll results came in...didn't I tell you!”
“You were right.” Ueda confirmed. “Since forever...I don't think they're planning on coming out though. They're happy with as much as they have now. I hope we can find that kind of happiness.”
“We've got plenty of time to work on it. For as long as we both shall live right?”
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Sorry for the delay in posting this. I really wanted there to be some good smut, one last time for old times' sake but it just did not want to be written. Given what day it is, I was pretty eager to get it finished and posted today but this is the best I could do! To make up for the crappy last chapter, I'll also post the epilogue which has been written for months already!
Pairing: JunDa
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 1430
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, and only the words are mine.
Summary: They knew that moving forward would be hard, but with each hurdle the happiness they deserve seems further and further away.
A/N: So here it is - the last chapter!!
“Did you do it?” Taguchi asked the moment Ueda walked through the door,.
Ueda paused by the entrance to the living room and shook his head slowly “Of course I didn't...I had every intention of doing it but in the end...I can't...Junno I'm so sorry.”
He sighed, a sigh that wasn't anywhere near the size of the relieved one he felt sagging in his chest. “It was just a stupid fight.”
“Not just about the fight.” Ueda amended. “About all of this. Junno I did it again...everything was perfect and I pushed for more...I pushed for impossible and all I did was hurt you...I always do this, I make a mountain of nothing and it only hurts us both. I just want it to stop.”
“But what about a baby?” Taguchi asked, he couldn't just forget.
“I want a baby, I do, I still really, really do, but not this much, not like this. What I want more than a baby is for us to be together and to be happy...” Ueda assured him.
“Do you mean it?” He wanted to believe it, he wanted to so badly but the pain was still raw enough that he couldn't quite forget how many other times they'd thought that what they had was all they could want, how many other times there'd been something else.
“I swear.” Ueda promised. “If I ever suggest anything so stupid again then punch me...”
Taguchi nodded sombrely, but then his lips started to twitch at Ueda's serious expression. Like he'd take on a boxer. He righted his expression quickly because there was more, other things that they'd decided on that were left hanging. “And the apartment?” he asked hopefully.
Ueda nodded quickly. “I'll call the realtor tomorrow” Then he looked sheepishly down at the ground. “And I'll apologise to Mayuko for dragging her into this.” Taguchi owed her an apology too, both of them had been so unreasonable, so obtrusive. “I've been an asshole this past week.”
It felt like it had been more than a week, it felt like this tension had been hanging over them for months rather than days. It felt like months since their wedding night. “We're supposed to be basking in the honeymoon period still...” Taguchi said glumly.
“It's not too late to go back to that...we didn't do anything stupid.” Ueda said hopefully and Taguchi felt his heart dropping into his stomach, could they really say that?
“I did.” he admitted. “When I was at Mayuko's...I...we...” he swallowed heavily as understanding dawned cross Ueda's face, overshadowed quickly by some mix of disappointment and guilt. “It didn't feel right...and I couldn't finish...but...”
Ueda shook his head slowly, a sad smile forming on his lips. “It doesn't matter what you did...it was for me. I'm the one to blame for that. Junno, I'm so sorry that I put you through that...”
Taguchi shook his head. “You didn't. I...”
Ueda cut him off again. “I did. I know I did, I knew even before I invited her back with us that you were unsure...when she came back then I was sure you were unsure, and when we sent her home...I pushed you to try again, I guilted you into it even though I knew you didn't want to. I should never have done that...”
He could hear the thickness in Ueda's voice and his own felt just as thick when he used it again “It's OK.”
“It's not.” Ueda insisted, a few tears dropping as he shook his head. “Tell me what I can do to make it up to you.”
What Taguchi wanted to say was that Ueda didn't need to do anything, that Taguchi would forgive him no matter what because that's what love is. He knew that Ueda would argue though, so instead he tried a shaky smile. “You could help me forget what she felt like...”
Ueda nodded quickly. “Anything.” Ueda was in his arms in seconds and Taguchi wrapped them around him. It felt, for just a fleeting moment like everything was going to be alright. Taguchi inhaled deeply, held on to the feeling because he knew, somehow, that they would be. They've come through hardships before, they will go through them again no doubt, all that mattered was that Ueda was here with him, willing to try.
“I love you.” Taguchi said, looking down at the love of his life, his best friend, his husband “I love you so fucking much.”
“I know.” Ueda answered. “I love you too...”
“I know.” Taguchi replied, his hand stroking Ueda's cheek, stroking away a week, what felt like more than a weeks worth of tears, of heartache. “As long as we have that...we have everything.”
“How could I think I wanted anything more than this?” Ueda asked, his voice quiet. Taguchi didn't answer, but his eyes roamed Ueda's face as his thumb stroked over Ueda's cheekbone and then he leaned in to kiss Ueda deeply.
Ueda kissed him back slowly jut a couple of times, and then he pulled away, his hands finding Taguchi's and coaxing him along with him as he half turned and lead the way down the hallway to the bedroom.
As soon as Ueda was on the bed, Taguchi climbed on after him, pushing him down onto his back so that he could lean over and kiss him again, and it was easy, just like that to sink into it. It was nothing like kissing Mayuko, Ueda's lips were just the perfect amount of plush with that edge of roughness that made Taguchi feel simultaneously in control and vulnerable. They were the perfect amount of moist, sliding just right against his own and when they parted there was just the right amount of pressure, the right amount of demanding in the movement of his tongue.
When Taguchi peeled the clothes from Ueda's body, it was the body he longed for, firm and toned, muscular, strong. His lips roamed across Ueda's chest, flicking momentarily at a nipple before moving down, kissing his way along the ridges and dips of Ueda's abs and the sound that Ueda let out at the sensation was more grunt than moan. It was even more grunt than moan once their clothes were removed, as Taguchi slid lubed fingers into the tight muscle of Ueda's ass. It was just the right amount of pressure, the perfect slide, his fingers both protested and sucked in while Ueda pushed back against his hand.
And when their bodies finally united it was bliss. It was perfect. Taguchi felt like he could never want anything else but to be connected to this man, to Ueda, for the rest of his life.
“I love you.” Taguchi gasped, because it felt like he could never say it enough. “I love you.” and he kissed Ueda hard, his hips driving harder, pushing into the body that was the perfect tightness, the perfect slickness.
Ueda moaned, his hips canting ever so slightly, his hand around his cock moving faster, his other hand weaving into Taguchi's hair, clenching so hard it almost hurt, tugging Taguchi's head down and Ueda was kissing him just the right amount of rough.
“I love you.” Ueda answered gruffly, right before Taguchi saw stars. Orgasm surging through him, and the walls constricting around him with Ueda's orgasm only took him higher, floating, his hips slowing, then stopping, and their mouths found each other once again as they struggled to catch their breaths through unrelenting kisses.
“Shige said he'll talk to Johnny about writing a script for our movie.” Ueda said airily what might have been hours later, his head rising and falling with Taguchi's steady breathing.
“Shige?” Taguchi asked, his hand pausing in it's stroking of Ueda's hair.
“I bumped into him while I was out.” Ueda admitted. “He may have stopped me from doing something stupid and talked a bit of sense into me. He gets it.” He paused slightly as though he hadn't meant to say it but continued anyway “He understands what we're going through, and he's a good writer, he'll be able to tell them all the truth.”
“He understands?” Taguchi asked. “Koyama?” he didn't wait for Ueda's reply. “That day in the elevator...when the poll results came in...didn't I tell you!”
“You were right.” Ueda confirmed. “Since forever...I don't think they're planning on coming out though. They're happy with as much as they have now. I hope we can find that kind of happiness.”
“We've got plenty of time to work on it. For as long as we both shall live right?”
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Sorry for the delay in posting this. I really wanted there to be some good smut, one last time for old times' sake but it just did not want to be written. Given what day it is, I was pretty eager to get it finished and posted today but this is the best I could do! To make up for the crappy last chapter, I'll also post the epilogue which has been written for months already!