[multichapter] baby blue: part 5: chapter 7
Title: Baby Blue: Part 5: Chapter 7
Pairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1090
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, and only the words are mine.
Summary: They knew that moving forward would be hard, but with each hurdle the happiness they deserve seems further and further away.
April 26th 2015
“How are you feeling?” his mother asked, handing over a cup of tea.
“Scared.” Taguchi admitted, but the furrowing of his mother's eyebrows made him think she'd actually been referring to the hang over he'd been whining about a few minutes ago. “Sick.” he added, unsure whether that was about the hang over too. “Maybe...” he started but his mum pushed his legs over on the sofa and squeezed on it beside them.
“What are you scared about?” she asked seriously.
He didn't even know where to begin, there was so much to tell her, so much she didn't know and he didn't know how to start. He didn't know where to start with everything that had already happened so he was completely lost on where to start with everything that was still to come, and god forbid she wanted to know his feelings about any of it. “I love him.” he said eventually, the one thing he was sure of. “I don't even know how to put into words how much he means to me...”
“But...” his mother continued for him.
“I could lose everything I've worked for all these years...I could lose my job, my friends, my reputation...if everything else goes, how do I know I won't lose him too?” he paused a moment to think about it, but the thoughts remained a tangled mess of 'ifs and could bes' “We've been through a lot, we've fought through so much that I don't even know how to tell you about...but what if we're not strong enough for this?”
His mum smiled at him softly, reaching out a hand to stroke at his cheek. “Life is all about chances.” she answered. “You wouldn't be where you are now if you hadn't taken any...what you need to think about is if this chance is worth it. It's a lot to risk...going public about something like this...you stand to lose a lot...but if you don't...are you satisfied the way things are? Is Tatsuya-kun? If you don't take this chance...do you stand to lose something more important?”
“My head hurts.” he answered eventually, though he was sure at least part of that was to do with the wine.
“Drink your tea and then try to sleep some more.” his mum insisted, offering him a comforting smile as she got up to leave him.
When he woke again he heard quiet voices from the kitchen and something lifted from his chest as he recognised one of them as Ueda's. He'd left Ueda sleeping that morning and gone downstairs to start trying to explain things to his mother. His chest suddenly felt heavier at the reminder that all of that was still to come, but chivalrously, he swung his legs over the edge of the sofa and padded through to join them.
He stopped dead in his tracks at the sight that awaited him. Both his mother and Ueda were in tears, a pile of soggy tissues littering the table in front of them. When they heard him enter they both turned to him and his mother rushed from her seat to pull him into a hug. “Oh Jun.” she sighed, squeezing him tight. “My poor, sweet, stupid boy.” she continued, pulling away to smack him around the head. “Why didn't you tell me...everything about that girl...I saw the gossip but I didn't think...oh Jun, you're such an idiot.”
Taguchi didn't need to ask. Ueda was sitting at the table, looking guiltily at his hands. “Mum...things were complicated...” he said in explanation, it was no excuse he knew that, but how could he have explained anything to her when half of the time he didn't even seem to know how he was feeling himself.
“Well you can come and sit down with the two of us and explain things now.” she said with finality, finally letting go of him, but taking his hand and squeezing it tightly as she led him to the table. “What were you even thinking getting involved with her when things were such a mess between you and Tatsuya?”
“I wasn’t really thinking.” he answered honestly. “I was in a pretty bad place...and Mayu-chan was there and she thought it would help...and I knew it wouldn't but I didn't think there was anything that would...and she was so nice.” It sounded stupid even to him but Ueda just reached out for his hand, taking hold of it on the table between them.
“Whatever the reason...and no matter how stupid we might both have been, we're through that now.” Ueda said, glancing at Taguchi's mother as he paused. “All of that has only convinced us that being together is what is best for us...we're no good when we're apart...and that's why we need to do this...that's why we need to go public even though it might cost us our jobs.”
Taguchi's mother reached out to place her hand atop their hands. “Whatever I can do to support you both...I'll do it in a heartbeat.”
Taguchi took a deep breath and turned to Ueda. “How far did you get? How much more is there to say?”
“Just about the poll...” Ueda admitted and Taguchi took another deep breath as he prepared to explain their current predicament.
“This is going to be tough few weeks for the two of you.” Taguchi's mother commented once they were finished their explanation. “Maybe a lot longer than that.”
Taguchi nodded. “Yeah, it's pretty scary...I mean we get fan letters saying the fans will support us no matter what...but what if this is too much for them to accept...”
Ueda smiled a little from across the table. “On the plus side we know we have at least a decent sized fujoshi following...”
Taguchi's mother laughed but it did nothing to ease the tension. “Production companies too...regardless of the fan's choices they'll have their own opinions...maybe the publicity will work in your favour...if the general reaction is bad though, you need to be prepared for people to be unwilling to work with you.”
“Yeah.” Taguchi nodded, Johnny himself had hinted enough at that. “It's not entirely desolate...there are a lot of trans-gender celebrities...maybe gay isn't so far a step behind that...”
Taguchi-san shook her head as if to dispel the atmosphere. “What are we doing dwelling on all that now? Huh? We should be looking forward to the good things, to you being able to get married and buy a house together...we should be looking forward to a bright future for the two of you.”.
Pairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1090
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, and only the words are mine.
Summary: They knew that moving forward would be hard, but with each hurdle the happiness they deserve seems further and further away.
April 26th 2015
“How are you feeling?” his mother asked, handing over a cup of tea.
“Scared.” Taguchi admitted, but the furrowing of his mother's eyebrows made him think she'd actually been referring to the hang over he'd been whining about a few minutes ago. “Sick.” he added, unsure whether that was about the hang over too. “Maybe...” he started but his mum pushed his legs over on the sofa and squeezed on it beside them.
“What are you scared about?” she asked seriously.
He didn't even know where to begin, there was so much to tell her, so much she didn't know and he didn't know how to start. He didn't know where to start with everything that had already happened so he was completely lost on where to start with everything that was still to come, and god forbid she wanted to know his feelings about any of it. “I love him.” he said eventually, the one thing he was sure of. “I don't even know how to put into words how much he means to me...”
“But...” his mother continued for him.
“I could lose everything I've worked for all these years...I could lose my job, my friends, my reputation...if everything else goes, how do I know I won't lose him too?” he paused a moment to think about it, but the thoughts remained a tangled mess of 'ifs and could bes' “We've been through a lot, we've fought through so much that I don't even know how to tell you about...but what if we're not strong enough for this?”
His mum smiled at him softly, reaching out a hand to stroke at his cheek. “Life is all about chances.” she answered. “You wouldn't be where you are now if you hadn't taken any...what you need to think about is if this chance is worth it. It's a lot to risk...going public about something like this...you stand to lose a lot...but if you don't...are you satisfied the way things are? Is Tatsuya-kun? If you don't take this chance...do you stand to lose something more important?”
“My head hurts.” he answered eventually, though he was sure at least part of that was to do with the wine.
“Drink your tea and then try to sleep some more.” his mum insisted, offering him a comforting smile as she got up to leave him.
When he woke again he heard quiet voices from the kitchen and something lifted from his chest as he recognised one of them as Ueda's. He'd left Ueda sleeping that morning and gone downstairs to start trying to explain things to his mother. His chest suddenly felt heavier at the reminder that all of that was still to come, but chivalrously, he swung his legs over the edge of the sofa and padded through to join them.
He stopped dead in his tracks at the sight that awaited him. Both his mother and Ueda were in tears, a pile of soggy tissues littering the table in front of them. When they heard him enter they both turned to him and his mother rushed from her seat to pull him into a hug. “Oh Jun.” she sighed, squeezing him tight. “My poor, sweet, stupid boy.” she continued, pulling away to smack him around the head. “Why didn't you tell me...everything about that girl...I saw the gossip but I didn't think...oh Jun, you're such an idiot.”
Taguchi didn't need to ask. Ueda was sitting at the table, looking guiltily at his hands. “Mum...things were complicated...” he said in explanation, it was no excuse he knew that, but how could he have explained anything to her when half of the time he didn't even seem to know how he was feeling himself.
“Well you can come and sit down with the two of us and explain things now.” she said with finality, finally letting go of him, but taking his hand and squeezing it tightly as she led him to the table. “What were you even thinking getting involved with her when things were such a mess between you and Tatsuya?”
“I wasn’t really thinking.” he answered honestly. “I was in a pretty bad place...and Mayu-chan was there and she thought it would help...and I knew it wouldn't but I didn't think there was anything that would...and she was so nice.” It sounded stupid even to him but Ueda just reached out for his hand, taking hold of it on the table between them.
“Whatever the reason...and no matter how stupid we might both have been, we're through that now.” Ueda said, glancing at Taguchi's mother as he paused. “All of that has only convinced us that being together is what is best for us...we're no good when we're apart...and that's why we need to do this...that's why we need to go public even though it might cost us our jobs.”
Taguchi's mother reached out to place her hand atop their hands. “Whatever I can do to support you both...I'll do it in a heartbeat.”
Taguchi took a deep breath and turned to Ueda. “How far did you get? How much more is there to say?”
“Just about the poll...” Ueda admitted and Taguchi took another deep breath as he prepared to explain their current predicament.
“This is going to be tough few weeks for the two of you.” Taguchi's mother commented once they were finished their explanation. “Maybe a lot longer than that.”
Taguchi nodded. “Yeah, it's pretty scary...I mean we get fan letters saying the fans will support us no matter what...but what if this is too much for them to accept...”
Ueda smiled a little from across the table. “On the plus side we know we have at least a decent sized fujoshi following...”
Taguchi's mother laughed but it did nothing to ease the tension. “Production companies too...regardless of the fan's choices they'll have their own opinions...maybe the publicity will work in your favour...if the general reaction is bad though, you need to be prepared for people to be unwilling to work with you.”
“Yeah.” Taguchi nodded, Johnny himself had hinted enough at that. “It's not entirely desolate...there are a lot of trans-gender celebrities...maybe gay isn't so far a step behind that...”
Taguchi-san shook her head as if to dispel the atmosphere. “What are we doing dwelling on all that now? Huh? We should be looking forward to the good things, to you being able to get married and buy a house together...we should be looking forward to a bright future for the two of you.”.