[multichapter] baby blue part 3 chapter 13
Title: Baby Blue: Part 3: Chapter 13
Pairing: JunDa
Rating: R
Word Count: 1866
Disclaimer: All people mentioned belong only to themselves...aside from JunDa who clearly belong to each other.
Summary: In the fairy tales they fall in love and live happily ever after...but this isn't a fairy tale. How are two people, madly in love, supposed to stay away from each other?
April 27th 2013
Work was becoming a struggle, or rather it had been a struggle for a long time, but it was getting to the point where Taguchi felt like he was losing it.
He’d been convincing himself all along that he just needed to move on, to let Ueda move on and they’d be fine, that if he carried on smiling and avoiding Ueda it would happen, and everyone around him would believe he is happy again.
Only he’s not, he’s felt like there is a knot in his stomach ever since that incident on Valentine’s Day, since he started acting coldly towards Ueda the day after. What makes it worse now though is that everyone is starting to believe like they were supposed to.
He walked into the rehearsal room, his usual cheery smile in place as he waved hello to the room in general, but his heart sunk a little at Ueda’s slight nod, his eyes downcast. He wondered just how well he was doing at convincing people he was happy, if Ueda believed it too.
He knew it was the best he could hope for that Ueda thought he had moved on, then Ueda would be able to move on too, but at the same time the idea of Ueda thinking he didn’t love him, the thought of Ueda not loving him, was more than he could bear.
He knew the others were at least starting to believe it, Koki no longer called him every evening just to see what he was up to, Maru no longer watched him from across the room, studying him for any sign that his mask might slip, and Kame was acting more like himself again, instead of some wise old man sharing the wisdom of his experiences.
While he did miss the attention a little, it was enough to know they cared, but when it came to Ueda, just being around him was killing him.
He tried to avoid being in the same room as the other man as much as possible, he spent most of his break times looking over scripts but it was hard to concentrate on his characters love story, while the person he wanted to love so badly was sitting just metres away.
Even talking to him directly was uncomfortable, mentally reminding himself not to slip into his old ways and call him by his given name, or even worse his pet name, but even his usual nickname felt too personal now.
The only weakness he allowed himself was the ring, Ueda hadn’t taken his off, and he had no plans to either, he meant what he’d said at Christmas, regardless of their situation there would always be part of him that belonged to Ueda.
It was just a short rehearsal and he spent it trying to focus completely on the steps he was learning, resisting the urge to run over to Ueda and help him through a particularly complicated series of steps. He ignored the way Ueda’s brow furrowed in that cute way when he was starting to get frustrated, or the way his fists clenched in anger when he still couldn’t get it, the large veins in his arms standing out in a strangely attractive way.
He turned away, trying not to let himself focus on Ueda’s increasingly sweaty state, the way his hair was getting damp around his neck and ears, the beads of moisture trailing almost sensually down his throat and the way that the urge to kiss them away had him beginning to harden in his pants.
He was relieved when the two hours were over and he rushed back to the dressing room, jumping straight into a cold shower to cool him off, just in time for his band members entering. He washed his hair and rinsed off quickly, determinedly looking anywhere but at the other naked bodies around him, scared of finding Ueda’s among them, and then after dressing and drying his hair he rushed off to film his drama.
He was relieved for yet another distraction, and although the love story he was part of was rather inconveniently painful, he was thoroughly enjoying the chance to act again. The story was well written and the production team were all very professional and friendly, and that was before getting onto the cast.
He was starring alongside Iwasa Mayuko, an incredibly beautiful and sweet girl that he’d got on well with during their time filming Ganbatte Ikimasshoi! Though it had been years since they’d worked together or even spoken, as soon as they found out they would be working together again she’d called him through his agent to congratulate him on the role and to catch up. They’d exchanged numbers then and had been in fairly regular contact since, though they didn’t see each other much until filming had started.
“Guchiiii” came her light, cheery tone from the doorway of his dressing room.
“Mayu-chan” he said, a little surprised as he turned to look at her. “I thought you finished filming an hour ago?”
“I did” she replied with a light pout on her lips as she entered the room. “I was just reading over some scripts and stuff until my next appointment.”
“You seem to be pretty busy…”
“Most of the time” she agreed with a slight smile “I’m free some evenings though…like tonight…if you wanted to go for dinner or something…” Taguchi was a little surprised and it must have shown on his face since in the next moment she was standing up, blushing and fiddling with her sleeves “I’m sorry, that was silly, it’s short notice and you must be busy…and I should…” she motioned for the door.
“No, hey wait” he said without thinking. “I mean we could go…it’s not unusual for co-workers to go out and eat together right? And I don’t have plans…”
“Really?” she asked, hope lighting up on her face again “I’d like to…”
“Great” he nodded “I’ll come by your hotel later then? Around eight?”
“Yeah, that’d be great…I’ll see you later…” and she left.
He was left dumbstruck for a moment as he tried to figure out what exactly had happened there, but it was only dinner after all, it’s not like he was going on a date or anything.
Still when eight came around he felt nervous enough for it to be one as he waited in the lobby of her hotel, dressed in smart trousers and a shirt. Mayuko came down the stairs just a few minutes later, looking natural but beautiful in a slinky cream and brown dress, her pale brown hair left hanging down naturally.
He took her hand out of politeness and lead her back outside where a taxi was still waiting for them. He was glad he hadn’t made any reservations at restaurants since as soon as they were sat comfortably in the back of the taxi, Mayuko began again with her light-hearted banter, talking about different restaurants that had been recommended to her recently.
In the end they went with Italian, laughing and chatting amiably as they fought their way through huge plates of pasta, sipping on glasses of beer.
“It’s so refreshing to drink beer with someone” Taguchi began without thinking “My ex wasn’t much of a beer drinker…”
Mayuko laughed “I guess most girls aren’t” and Taguchi couldn’t help but laugh bitterly at her statement. “What was she like?”
“Nice” he answered almost immediately, but then he realised how strange the sentiment sounded on its own and took a minute to think, he was a little drunk and he didn’t want to take any chances with letting the truth slip. “Different to my usual type, but nice, relaxing to be around but also really fun and sometimes wild. Incredibly stubborn and pig-headed most of the time, but also incredibly sweet…” he trailed off, his throat feeling a little thick and so he took another large gulp of his beer to wash it down.
Mayuko was regarding him with interest, maybe a little sadness mixed in “You love her right?”
Taguchi’s laugh surprised even himself “Am I that obvious?”
“You’re not afraid to show people how you’re feeling…I’ve always liked that about you”
That certainly used to be true, but ever since things started with Ueda, Taguchi felt like all he’d been doing was trying to hide his feelings. “I’m not so sure…” he realised after a few moments that he was staring off wistfully to the side so he turned his attention quickly back to Mayuko who he found smiling dotingly at him. “What?” he asked, breaking into a smile when hers grew wider.
“You” she chuckled “You’re irresistibly cute.”
He wasn’t exactly sure how he’d ended up back in Mayuko’s hotel room with her, he had a vague sense that there’d been more beer, and some alcohol talk, and he was fairly sure there’d been some promise of seeing her mini-bar with its array of obscure and expensive little bottles.
“My management told me to help myself so…if there’s anything you want…”
“I think I’ve had plenty enough to drink” he replied, ruining the seriousness of it with a comical hiccup.
There were hands on his face, small, soft, delicate, so different from Ueda’s and Mayuko’s light, airy giggle was ringing in his ears. Then her face was in view too, all bright-eyed and flushed cheeked, her lips glossy and her teeth white and shiny where she was smiling.
He didn’t think, he just did it, closing the distance and tasting her in a gentle kiss. Mayuko gave out a breathy sigh over his lips and kissed him again, pressing a little harder, and then sweeping her tongue gently over his lips.
“Wait” Taguchi said suddenly, pushing her away, “This is wrong…this is totally, incredibly…not good.”
Mayuko chuckled “It’s alright, we’re both responsible adults…”
A shudder ran through him at the sentiment, had that been his argument last time, or Ueda’s? Either way he didn’t want to make the same mistakes again.
“Mayu-chan, I like you, I do, you’re sweet and funny and beautiful, and obviously really sexy, but I’m not ready to get involved with anyone else” even in his drunken state he knew that much, the wounds were still far too raw.
“I don’t mind…” Mayuko replied shyly. “I can tell that you still have feelings for your ex…but for whatever reason you aren’t together anymore…I can help you move on. Guchi…I’ve liked you for a long time, even back then I liked you, and then when we started working together all those feelings rose back up…you’re not like other guys, you don’t try to act all cool, you’re my friend…and I like you, I like you a lot…”
“Thank you…but I can’t feel the same way right now…”
“I understand that…but until you can, I just want to be with you any way that you’ll have me. If you want to sleep with me, or if you just want to talk to me…I’ll take whatever I can get…I won’t expect your feelings in return…” when Taguchi wavered only slightly she leaned back in to kiss him again “Let me make you feel good…”
Chapter 12 | Chapter 14
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So....erm...*hides*
Pan-chan, are you ok? You still like me?
Pairing: JunDa
Rating: R
Word Count: 1866
Disclaimer: All people mentioned belong only to themselves...aside from JunDa who clearly belong to each other.
Summary: In the fairy tales they fall in love and live happily ever after...but this isn't a fairy tale. How are two people, madly in love, supposed to stay away from each other?
April 27th 2013
Work was becoming a struggle, or rather it had been a struggle for a long time, but it was getting to the point where Taguchi felt like he was losing it.
He’d been convincing himself all along that he just needed to move on, to let Ueda move on and they’d be fine, that if he carried on smiling and avoiding Ueda it would happen, and everyone around him would believe he is happy again.
Only he’s not, he’s felt like there is a knot in his stomach ever since that incident on Valentine’s Day, since he started acting coldly towards Ueda the day after. What makes it worse now though is that everyone is starting to believe like they were supposed to.
He walked into the rehearsal room, his usual cheery smile in place as he waved hello to the room in general, but his heart sunk a little at Ueda’s slight nod, his eyes downcast. He wondered just how well he was doing at convincing people he was happy, if Ueda believed it too.
He knew it was the best he could hope for that Ueda thought he had moved on, then Ueda would be able to move on too, but at the same time the idea of Ueda thinking he didn’t love him, the thought of Ueda not loving him, was more than he could bear.
He knew the others were at least starting to believe it, Koki no longer called him every evening just to see what he was up to, Maru no longer watched him from across the room, studying him for any sign that his mask might slip, and Kame was acting more like himself again, instead of some wise old man sharing the wisdom of his experiences.
While he did miss the attention a little, it was enough to know they cared, but when it came to Ueda, just being around him was killing him.
He tried to avoid being in the same room as the other man as much as possible, he spent most of his break times looking over scripts but it was hard to concentrate on his characters love story, while the person he wanted to love so badly was sitting just metres away.
Even talking to him directly was uncomfortable, mentally reminding himself not to slip into his old ways and call him by his given name, or even worse his pet name, but even his usual nickname felt too personal now.
The only weakness he allowed himself was the ring, Ueda hadn’t taken his off, and he had no plans to either, he meant what he’d said at Christmas, regardless of their situation there would always be part of him that belonged to Ueda.
It was just a short rehearsal and he spent it trying to focus completely on the steps he was learning, resisting the urge to run over to Ueda and help him through a particularly complicated series of steps. He ignored the way Ueda’s brow furrowed in that cute way when he was starting to get frustrated, or the way his fists clenched in anger when he still couldn’t get it, the large veins in his arms standing out in a strangely attractive way.
He turned away, trying not to let himself focus on Ueda’s increasingly sweaty state, the way his hair was getting damp around his neck and ears, the beads of moisture trailing almost sensually down his throat and the way that the urge to kiss them away had him beginning to harden in his pants.
He was relieved when the two hours were over and he rushed back to the dressing room, jumping straight into a cold shower to cool him off, just in time for his band members entering. He washed his hair and rinsed off quickly, determinedly looking anywhere but at the other naked bodies around him, scared of finding Ueda’s among them, and then after dressing and drying his hair he rushed off to film his drama.
He was relieved for yet another distraction, and although the love story he was part of was rather inconveniently painful, he was thoroughly enjoying the chance to act again. The story was well written and the production team were all very professional and friendly, and that was before getting onto the cast.
He was starring alongside Iwasa Mayuko, an incredibly beautiful and sweet girl that he’d got on well with during their time filming Ganbatte Ikimasshoi! Though it had been years since they’d worked together or even spoken, as soon as they found out they would be working together again she’d called him through his agent to congratulate him on the role and to catch up. They’d exchanged numbers then and had been in fairly regular contact since, though they didn’t see each other much until filming had started.
“Guchiiii” came her light, cheery tone from the doorway of his dressing room.
“Mayu-chan” he said, a little surprised as he turned to look at her. “I thought you finished filming an hour ago?”
“I did” she replied with a light pout on her lips as she entered the room. “I was just reading over some scripts and stuff until my next appointment.”
“You seem to be pretty busy…”
“Most of the time” she agreed with a slight smile “I’m free some evenings though…like tonight…if you wanted to go for dinner or something…” Taguchi was a little surprised and it must have shown on his face since in the next moment she was standing up, blushing and fiddling with her sleeves “I’m sorry, that was silly, it’s short notice and you must be busy…and I should…” she motioned for the door.
“No, hey wait” he said without thinking. “I mean we could go…it’s not unusual for co-workers to go out and eat together right? And I don’t have plans…”
“Really?” she asked, hope lighting up on her face again “I’d like to…”
“Great” he nodded “I’ll come by your hotel later then? Around eight?”
“Yeah, that’d be great…I’ll see you later…” and she left.
He was left dumbstruck for a moment as he tried to figure out what exactly had happened there, but it was only dinner after all, it’s not like he was going on a date or anything.
Still when eight came around he felt nervous enough for it to be one as he waited in the lobby of her hotel, dressed in smart trousers and a shirt. Mayuko came down the stairs just a few minutes later, looking natural but beautiful in a slinky cream and brown dress, her pale brown hair left hanging down naturally.
He took her hand out of politeness and lead her back outside where a taxi was still waiting for them. He was glad he hadn’t made any reservations at restaurants since as soon as they were sat comfortably in the back of the taxi, Mayuko began again with her light-hearted banter, talking about different restaurants that had been recommended to her recently.
In the end they went with Italian, laughing and chatting amiably as they fought their way through huge plates of pasta, sipping on glasses of beer.
“It’s so refreshing to drink beer with someone” Taguchi began without thinking “My ex wasn’t much of a beer drinker…”
Mayuko laughed “I guess most girls aren’t” and Taguchi couldn’t help but laugh bitterly at her statement. “What was she like?”
“Nice” he answered almost immediately, but then he realised how strange the sentiment sounded on its own and took a minute to think, he was a little drunk and he didn’t want to take any chances with letting the truth slip. “Different to my usual type, but nice, relaxing to be around but also really fun and sometimes wild. Incredibly stubborn and pig-headed most of the time, but also incredibly sweet…” he trailed off, his throat feeling a little thick and so he took another large gulp of his beer to wash it down.
Mayuko was regarding him with interest, maybe a little sadness mixed in “You love her right?”
Taguchi’s laugh surprised even himself “Am I that obvious?”
“You’re not afraid to show people how you’re feeling…I’ve always liked that about you”
That certainly used to be true, but ever since things started with Ueda, Taguchi felt like all he’d been doing was trying to hide his feelings. “I’m not so sure…” he realised after a few moments that he was staring off wistfully to the side so he turned his attention quickly back to Mayuko who he found smiling dotingly at him. “What?” he asked, breaking into a smile when hers grew wider.
“You” she chuckled “You’re irresistibly cute.”
He wasn’t exactly sure how he’d ended up back in Mayuko’s hotel room with her, he had a vague sense that there’d been more beer, and some alcohol talk, and he was fairly sure there’d been some promise of seeing her mini-bar with its array of obscure and expensive little bottles.
“My management told me to help myself so…if there’s anything you want…”
“I think I’ve had plenty enough to drink” he replied, ruining the seriousness of it with a comical hiccup.
There were hands on his face, small, soft, delicate, so different from Ueda’s and Mayuko’s light, airy giggle was ringing in his ears. Then her face was in view too, all bright-eyed and flushed cheeked, her lips glossy and her teeth white and shiny where she was smiling.
He didn’t think, he just did it, closing the distance and tasting her in a gentle kiss. Mayuko gave out a breathy sigh over his lips and kissed him again, pressing a little harder, and then sweeping her tongue gently over his lips.
“Wait” Taguchi said suddenly, pushing her away, “This is wrong…this is totally, incredibly…not good.”
Mayuko chuckled “It’s alright, we’re both responsible adults…”
A shudder ran through him at the sentiment, had that been his argument last time, or Ueda’s? Either way he didn’t want to make the same mistakes again.
“Mayu-chan, I like you, I do, you’re sweet and funny and beautiful, and obviously really sexy, but I’m not ready to get involved with anyone else” even in his drunken state he knew that much, the wounds were still far too raw.
“I don’t mind…” Mayuko replied shyly. “I can tell that you still have feelings for your ex…but for whatever reason you aren’t together anymore…I can help you move on. Guchi…I’ve liked you for a long time, even back then I liked you, and then when we started working together all those feelings rose back up…you’re not like other guys, you don’t try to act all cool, you’re my friend…and I like you, I like you a lot…”
“Thank you…but I can’t feel the same way right now…”
“I understand that…but until you can, I just want to be with you any way that you’ll have me. If you want to sleep with me, or if you just want to talk to me…I’ll take whatever I can get…I won’t expect your feelings in return…” when Taguchi wavered only slightly she leaned back in to kiss him again “Let me make you feel good…”
Chapter 12 | Chapter 14
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So....erm...*hides*
Pan-chan, are you ok? You still like me?