never just an ordinary girl
When the weather bothers me
I empty drawers of other summer's
Where my shadows used to be
She is standing by the water
As her smile begins to curl
In this or any other summer
She is something all together different
Never just an ordinary girl
And in the evenings on Long Island
When the colors start to fade
She wears a silly yellow hat
That someone gave her when she stayed
I didn't think that she returned it
We left New York in a whirl
Time expands and then contracts
When you are spinning
In the grips of someone
Who is not an ordinary girl
- Counting Crows
Don't know why, but I felt like posting that.
I've been doing so good this week other then a break down yesterday, pretty big one but hey thats me. And it was turned right around by someone who always knows what to say. I hate when I get like that, becasue I'm the happy girl I always have been. I always know how to turn myself around and brush off whatevers bothering me, or at least be able to see past it. I dont like that I've been so sad so often this year and I dont like that I havnt been able to shake it. But I've been so happy this past week so hopefully I'm turning it around again. When I go into a mode like I was in during my break down yesterday it kind of freaks me out. I get a lot of anixety and I need to learn to control it because sometimes it gets out of hand and that freaks me out. I'm noticing theres a problem with that and the feelings aren't normal, so now I'm just working on figuring out how to control it. Hopefully that works out okay haha.
but I'm happy, and have no reason not to be. I wish all my girlys were happy to, but they'll come around becasue they all deserve it so much, I hate to see them sad. <33
19 days till Matty, 38 days till thanksgiving. <-- can't wait. :)
I empty drawers of other summer's
Where my shadows used to be
She is standing by the water
As her smile begins to curl
In this or any other summer
She is something all together different
Never just an ordinary girl
And in the evenings on Long Island
When the colors start to fade
She wears a silly yellow hat
That someone gave her when she stayed
I didn't think that she returned it
We left New York in a whirl
Time expands and then contracts
When you are spinning
In the grips of someone
Who is not an ordinary girl
- Counting Crows
Don't know why, but I felt like posting that.
I've been doing so good this week other then a break down yesterday, pretty big one but hey thats me. And it was turned right around by someone who always knows what to say. I hate when I get like that, becasue I'm the happy girl I always have been. I always know how to turn myself around and brush off whatevers bothering me, or at least be able to see past it. I dont like that I've been so sad so often this year and I dont like that I havnt been able to shake it. But I've been so happy this past week so hopefully I'm turning it around again. When I go into a mode like I was in during my break down yesterday it kind of freaks me out. I get a lot of anixety and I need to learn to control it because sometimes it gets out of hand and that freaks me out. I'm noticing theres a problem with that and the feelings aren't normal, so now I'm just working on figuring out how to control it. Hopefully that works out okay haha.
but I'm happy, and have no reason not to be. I wish all my girlys were happy to, but they'll come around becasue they all deserve it so much, I hate to see them sad. <33
19 days till Matty, 38 days till thanksgiving. <-- can't wait. :)