the quiet things that no one ever knows
I have this huge desire to write, express my emotions through words, but I lost that ability a long time ago, or maybe I never really had it, but either way I have no way to satisfy this need.
Its just this intense longing, missing, lonley, sad feeling joined with this incredible hopeful, loving, anticipation, secure feeling. It's really quite wonderful either way, to have someone so amazing who has such a powerful influence on my life. With each passing day I feel more and more sure of what we have and who we are with each other and on our own. It doesnt matter that we are living two completly different and separate lives right now. We're in places that the other one has never seen, and with people the other one has never met. And maybe I'll never see all those places, and maybe he'll never meet all these people, but some how that doesn't matter. It doesn't matter how far apart we are or how long it will be till the next time we see each other because in reality we are always together and I see him everytime I close my eyes. And anytime that I get too sad, I just look at his picture, IM him or call to hear his voice and I'm renewed. The pain subsides a little and that incredible happy feeling increases and I know I'll make it, we'll make it, these next few years is just something we have to get through, nothing will shake us.
Its just this intense longing, missing, lonley, sad feeling joined with this incredible hopeful, loving, anticipation, secure feeling. It's really quite wonderful either way, to have someone so amazing who has such a powerful influence on my life. With each passing day I feel more and more sure of what we have and who we are with each other and on our own. It doesnt matter that we are living two completly different and separate lives right now. We're in places that the other one has never seen, and with people the other one has never met. And maybe I'll never see all those places, and maybe he'll never meet all these people, but some how that doesn't matter. It doesn't matter how far apart we are or how long it will be till the next time we see each other because in reality we are always together and I see him everytime I close my eyes. And anytime that I get too sad, I just look at his picture, IM him or call to hear his voice and I'm renewed. The pain subsides a little and that incredible happy feeling increases and I know I'll make it, we'll make it, these next few years is just something we have to get through, nothing will shake us.